Vodka Mix With Lawyers??

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I have an appointment now with the disability attorneys, for the first time. Freaking out so I got here an hour early and drink some alcohol to calm me down.

Think they'll notice? I am chewing on mints … Will it be a negative for me?

 

[Deleted member 1860]

I think you should work on calming yourself down so that you can get through the meeting with the lawyers. Try not to worry so much about what they will think, rather focus on getting through it all.

 

[shandemonium]

honey you're fine just do what you can to get there!

Pop in a few mints and stick of gum! You go girl :) Sending you love and support...

PS
I pretty much take several bong hits before doing anything these days.

 

[Recovery4Me]

May your meeting be fruitful.

After the lawyers, (as what is done is done) consider another strategy for coping- that does not involve substance abuse. Masking anxiety versus regulation of anxiety is a slippery slope that with alcohol very few get to remain on the top.

 

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Thanks all. I'm sitting in office now. Keep trying to catch my breath. Thank u for ur support! Will help me get thru this. In one piece hopefully :)

 

[AngelKeeperJ]

(((Smile)))
In this case, you shouldn't be smiling...because you have a disability...so that's easy, huh?
Here's an exercise that can work, and I admit that sometimes, I'm too nervous. Try breathing in through your nose, to the count of 8-10. Then, with your mouth barely open, breathe out double whatever 'in' count you did. Slowly, with control...
When I am REALLY nervous, it's 4 in...4 out, but it's the concentrating on the count that helps you slow down.
:hug:Here's a hug to get you through!!!
Blessings, sent your way!!!

 

[Changing4Best]

Tell them everything you can think of about your situation and answer all their questions as honestly as you can. They know how to taylor make your statements into what the Judge and SS need to hear.

 

[Neverthesame]

I am not sure. I have never tried to mix a lawyer into a vodka drink. Would you use a blender?

Sorry couldn't help myself. hee hee. Hope it went okay for you.

 

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I am not sure. I have never tried to mix a lawyer into a vodka drink. Would you use a blender?

@Neverthesame , HAHAHAHAHA! Thank you for MUCH needed laugh :))

 

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Thank you ALL for your support and advice on breathing (gosh & here I thought we were made to naturally know how to breath :))

Sorry I haven't updated since. That meeting upset me tremendously. On the advice of some office, I just went to a law firm that always advertises in the radio. Big mistake apparently.

I met with some assistant who was nice but that's about it. She didn't ask me any personal information & so I didn't offer any because I assumed (correctly I believe) that if she's not asking, whatever "extra" info I give her wont go anywhere or be documented. She told me it usually takes AT LEAST 1 year just to get a hearing date. I asked her what people do in the meantime. Her reply, "it's really sad but most people starve." I said that's fine because I rarely eat anyway but what about a roof over my head? Oh right... People go homeless too.

Now, I have been seriously considering just living out of my car because it makes the most financial sense. But I did it last year for about a month and it was horrible. Pretty much because I'm enough of a scaredy cat in my apartment but try leaving in a vestibule that is mostly windows? Where you can hear every sound from a mile away? I never slept.

Had appointment same day with psychiatrist who told me that the lawfirm I went to is known to take very long. He gave me number for attorney to call for a referral. So I'll try to call them tomorrow.

Told T about it all. Now she's concerned that I've totally lost hope on working & now wants to help me learn tools so that I can start making at least some money immediately. But how can I explain to her that I don't have enough energy to focus on job & disability? Each on their own feel like insurmountable tasks... But simultaneously??!??

I just feel so helpless. My government does not have my back. I feel like I constantly need to prove that I'm not trying to take advantage of the system & IM SICK OF TRYING TO DEFEND MYSELF. Why can't I just be believed? I know, naive but it's not fair! I'm being punished for a cynical world that I have never been associated with!

My whole life I've been so honest. And now this.

Sorry for the long winded spiel...