Structural Dissociation - Psychotic 'part'

[Ronin]

@shimmerz, let's not forget not moving is also a perfectly valid option. Sitting it out. Moving in time. Consciousness changes. Reevaluation. Some more of these hard-to-perceive changes that matter so much, when moving isn't physically possible. You have always somewhere to go, whether it's outside or within. Not like retreat, more like plotting.

 

[scout86]

The thing I just can't help but to be awed and amazed about is that I reacted like this LONG before I knew my past.

Not to split hairs, but you ALWAYS knew your past, you just weren't aware of it.

"Any place you want to" MIGHT be rational and sane...It's also defiant. I accepted the fact that there were people who didn't want me around, who thought I had no value. It was and is true. And, I suppose, it hurt. (I don't specifically remember that.) But, when it comes right down to it, we ALL have a perfect right to walk this world. You, me, Bill Clinton. Doesn't matter. We're here, we get to stay and do what we can or will as long as we have the chance. And NO ONE has the right to say different. They can say what they want anyway, true. But WE can ignore them or tell them to F off or what ever.

When you are a very young child, you're dependent on others. No choice about that. And it's important that they value you enough to keep you alive. Or value staying out of trouble enough, which ever. Once you're legally able to mind your own business, you don't actually need them anymore. You're as free as you choose to be. You can find your OWN place and claim it for yourself. The truth is, there are a LOT of people who value you and are glad you're walking this world.

I have to confess, I went for a few years where it was a huge goal for me that I own my own place, because I wanted something that no one could take away from me. Now? I might be ok with a motor home. (Heat in the winter is a huge plus! And, I'd like room for books, and the dogs. and i suppose that goofy cat too...)

 

[shimmerz]

Bill Clinton.

Bill Clinton? I don't think so! Same with Brian Mulroney. Hmmm. And I am not either one of those.

Now? I might be ok with a motor home. (Heat in the winter is a huge plus! And, I'd like room for books, and the dogs. and i suppose that goofy cat too...)

Yes. This. And I would park in the South Western States to avoid heating bills. That way I (we - cause if you'll come we can park in the same area) can swim. Goddamm I miss my dog.

Cashew, it feels like a bit of a double bind right now. I am not certain if that is real or not. There is a feeling that I MUST do this. Or it will get worse. Or my life will get worse. Or I will get used to never having a choice. I see the value in not rushing, however. Putting stress and strain on when clearly I am already feeling like I am cracking. Thank you so much for reminding me of this.

 

[scout86]

I picked him just to illustrate that even the more questionable members of the species have the right to breathe air. LOL (Rush Limbaugh? Even Rush? :clown:)

 

[shimmerz]

(Rush Limbaugh? Even Rush? :clown:)

I just love you....

 

[joeylittle]

http://www.whatthebleep.com/down-the-rabbit-hole/

Problem is if you think about it too much, you go down the rabbit hole.

As I've been reading this thread, I've been thinking about this film. It's called What The Bleep Do We Know?! (down the rabbit hole).
@shimmerz, you are in a place where you might find it very interesting. And @scout86 - this post:

I was just thinking about something I blew off during my last therapy session and I wonder how it applies here..... [My therapist] actually told me that EVERYTHING is something we make up..... Well, he said it was a lie and then we got into a debate about the definition of the word "lie". His point, I think, was that we can never actually know what "reality" is, if even IF it is...Anyway, if what we perceive to be "reality" is just a construct of our brains, maybe "psychosis" isn't actually possible because what ever you're in touch with IS "reality"?

Is kind of what this movie is about.

It's something you can find in segments on YouTube for free; you can also stream it from the site link, above. I don't know what I think of all of it, but it basically uses quantum physics to illustrate some of the more interesting mind-bending theories about time and reality. It actually does a very good job of communicating those concepts. it's also fairly entertaining and you can watch it in chunks.

Anyway - it struck me as potentially relevant for the thread.

 

[scout86]

I've heard of that film! I wanted to watch that film Where did I hear of it and what distracted me before I got around to watching it, I wonder. LOL I LOVE that kind of stuff. Which, no doubt, is why some of my various instructors hated me. :D

 

[shimmerz]

Thanks JoeyLittle. I have seen the film, but quite a long time ago. I need a refresher. I appreciate your bringing this up. :hug:

 

[Hope4Now]

Rush Limbaugh?

You're really pushing the envelope there. Even for me. LOL. Half kidding.

 

[scout86]

But only "half"? LOL

 

[Hope4Now]

I just requested the film from the library @joeylittle. It looks really fun. Thank you. I don't know how I missed this. I read a surprising amount about quantum stuff...maybe this will take a lot less work! Will have to see if there's a follow-up...10 years later now! Post Haldon Collider discoveries, etc.! Anyway...thank you for the tip!

 

[Born to Run]

I have the book by the guy featured in this movie, Joe Dispenza: Evolve your Brain, the science of changing your mind. Very interesting indeed, did not finish entire book yet. Totally believe in quantum physics. Will watch the movie too. Thank you joeylittle.
I just wonder if this is material for actual use, when you are in quite a deep process that involves EP's that are taking over. I know for myself, I could not.

@shimmerz Would you remember what the source was of the quoted text by vd Hart in your OP?