Hello all,
I've been in a combat zone for half my adult life, and never had an issue controlling the memories of the things I've witnessed (or done). But now, over ten years after my first deployment, I'm floored.
I've been hiding this from my family for months, as I don't want to burden them with something like this. I break down almost daily, somedays multiple times. I'll just excuse myself and hide in the bathroom, crying quietly while I choke back vomit, or pull into a parking lot until I can compose my emotions properly.
I don't want to talk about it really, but I just needed to get something out there, relieve a bit of pressure I suppose. If anyone has any good tricks to stop the memories from flooding back so intensely, I'm willing to try anything at this point.
Thanks for the opportunity to vent,
Jeff
I've been in a combat zone for half my adult life, and never had an issue controlling the memories of the things I've witnessed (or done). But now, over ten years after my first deployment, I'm floored.
I've been hiding this from my family for months, as I don't want to burden them with something like this. I break down almost daily, somedays multiple times. I'll just excuse myself and hide in the bathroom, crying quietly while I choke back vomit, or pull into a parking lot until I can compose my emotions properly.
I don't want to talk about it really, but I just needed to get something out there, relieve a bit of pressure I suppose. If anyone has any good tricks to stop the memories from flooding back so intensely, I'm willing to try anything at this point.
Thanks for the opportunity to vent,
Jeff