Reframing

[Deleted member 24866]

this one works on desensitizations it works GREAT.. but also my faith and hope in "angels" present in darkness.. even if now through the department of homeland security blue against trafficking.

 

[Deleted member 24866]

at 16 I had to take shelter with a Satanic felon till 18..

 

[Deleted member 24866]

this expresses what homelessness does to a mind.. I usually invest at least in hour.. but for your sakes gonna resolve this one quick- there is a lot to a story about a person.. hence the sonic library

 

[Kintsugi]

So... do you consider this a sort of exposure therapy, then, or is it validation through creating your narrative in art?

ETA: Do you see a professional? What do they say?

Another edit: the vocalist in the above video dances in a way that reminds me of butoh. I loved it. I think Maynard's animations for Tool videos also employ butoh.

 

[Deleted member 24866]

speaks of escaping trafficking, and a delusional aspect (Babylon "shadow" due to complications --devastation after divorce when he started raping me and I had to go.. my name means "Victory- lift up God ((Melissa was my name when I ran away)).. my x's was Amen.. it messed up my head.. with my past.. you can call me Babylon.. cleaning up after disasters is a prone time for traffickers also.. so it fits in ok.. ;)

 

[Deleted member 24866]

So... do you consider this a sort of exposure therapy, then, or is it validation through creating yo...

both- I do, but its been awhile. Generally they can't keep up.. its hard to explain. 25 years an almost psychotic mess.. these days grounded. Ocassional breaks from meds but lately after triggered by my middle eastern x's family and trying to get out of what felt like clutches of abusive control.. was hospitalized. But feeling good. No appointment for a bit. Hate starting over- know you know what I mean there. I did notice in the past even art projects of expression are now valued treasure. It feels like making a mosaic with your life.. but its beautiful.. less complicated to carry with ya.. :) Perhaps my faith helps also now.. realizing every synaptic response with in this body has its origin in the sun..and a fan of radio and the radiologic spectrum, I know the light has seen and is with me, I feel a sense of belonging to the univers. (also helps to know you are not alone and the more you advocate for your perspective the greater amount of belonging you see, and we rise.. empowered. Heros.. vs. victims, if we can save 1 person.. its worth it. Thank you for your interest!

 

[Deleted member 24866]

both- I do, but its been awhile. Generally they can't keep up.. its hard to explain. 25 years an almost...

 

[Kintsugi]

I prefer to identify as a victim, personally, but I appreciate your identity as a hero, and I would never, ever disagree based on what you've shared.

So you do this daily?

Presents for you:
"This body holding me/Reminding me that I am not alone/This body holding me/Is eternal, all this pain is an illusion" (Parabol/Parabola--Tool)
and
"So let the light touch you/And let the words spill through/And they will pass right through/Bringing out our hope and reason" (Reflection--Tool)

 

[Deleted member 24866]

I passionately if not annoyingly advocate for retroactive justice imagery via satellite for murder rape, and crimes against children. I see throwing kids on the streets as an act of terror and war when traffickers pick them up, to use at their conveinience to fight, rape, and trafficked individuals have a much lower life expectancy less than 5 years from the time of abduction. I am a force now - a bitch perhaps.. but becoming whole and I need to see justice for these kids. People tolerate and understand what I say with my story. (almost surprisingly to me) I think they just want me to shut up about my past and what people have to endure- but really no one asks this. They learn. I have some ametuer radio back ground and the studies in interagency coordination have helped me and perhaps earned me an once of respect (trying to prevent my kids abductions to middle east.. I may not be rich, I may have had to live in my car at points.. but my kids are still here. Not as easy a task as you would imagine.

 

[Deleted member 24866]

yeh, for the last couple weeks. seems to be coming together. I do hope it is not forever though. lol.. but doubt it will be, that was what I was hoping to question if anyone else did this and how it worked for them. A long time I was the victim.. but it would never stop. SO I cut people out of my life who put me down, and I found myself. That girl was stronger than this woman.. I give her respect . (me as a kid :) ) I did promise her then I would go back for her... so I honored my prophecy. Finding her- I found ..me.

 

[Deleted member 24866]

thank you for sharing this AM meditation. :) God bless you guys, this site is amazing.

 

[Kintsugi]

I know many, many people here use music as a coping mechanism and something through which to reflect on trauma and experience. I have a thread here, Songs You Relate to, based on that tendency. I'm not sure this is exactly what you're talking about, though.