Flashback To Infancy

[sun seeker]

I'm actually pleased that I could come out of it enough to label it a flashback, to tell myself terrible things happened when I was a baby but that was a long time ago, to remember to go to the freezer for ice, to tell myself I am in an adult body now standing in my kitchen putting ice on my face, that I have options and one of them is to reach out to people.

Flashbacks to infancy are the hardest for me because they make me feel so vulnerable, and there is no clear memory of what exactly happened. They are purely emotion and somatics. And I am terrified of bad things happening if I talk about them.

I'll get through this. I just need to reach out and know there are people there.

 

[sharon hall]

Your not alone in having flashbacks to baby time I'm comforted in a way but sad that I am not alone in having bad memories associated so early in life I was yelled at with cabinets slammed because of me by my mother and molested before I was two. My father changed me on a table and touched me my foster father molested me and my mother couldn't handle me so she put me in fostercare so she could get help

 

[Jobriel]

I've had these types of flashbacks as well. I don't have any visuals, but I have the emotions and body feelings. I find these types of experiences very intense because there is no verbal expression of what is going on. It's just pure experience.

 

[InvisibleSun]

Your not alone in having flashbacks to baby time I'm comforted in a way but sad that I am not alone in having bad memories associated so early in life

Agreed..I suffered severe medical trauma as a baby and a child and I suffer with a lot of the same emotions and somatics. You are definitely not alone..

 

[sun seeker]

Sometimes if I am anxious for no reason I can put my finger on, and I look for the source of the anxiety, I can feel and hear a baby crying in my head, clear as anything. The imagery connected with it is very vague and symbolic though.

 

[lux.]

How do you guys know you were molested in infancy if you don't remember it?

 

[sun seeker]

I don't think I was molested in infancy. As far as I can see only one person is saying that.

 

[Jobriel]

Lux, I don't remember abuse, but I have DID and I have some very young alters who are triggered by sexual stuff..