Wow, so glad I found this thread and thanks OP!
I'm in my early 30s and have been in trauma recovery therapy for just a few yrs. I have many different interests and find myself throwing away or donating something and wondering why I ever bought it.
I have quite a collection of build-a-bears and tonight, I had this intense desire to find the perfect baby doll to take care of. I stayed up until 3 am finding the perfect one.
My plush animals often accompany me to therapy. Sometimes they are in my arms, sometimes just nearby. My therapist hasn't said anything in regards to this. I'd like to being the subject up, especially after my insistence on finding a baby doll tonight. I'm not quite sure what to say or even what I want to say. I feel great about it alone, but with my circumstances of not being unable to conceive and being single in a Jewish community where that's unheard of, I feel like a loser. Like its my dirty little secret.
My therapist brought up molestation that occurred (I can't even say that word) at our last session and we discussed how I don't ever feel ylmy age/I forget my age and I think that triggered the desire tonight.
I guess I'm looking for a way to be more comfortable with it and not worry someone will walk into the room where I'm hugging my teddy bear or rocking a baby doll.
Those of you who comfort yourself with these kinds of things, I'd like to hear how you feel about it and if you feel you need to hide it?
