When I'm Feeling Good, I Find It Hard To Explain The Feeling Bad, But Need To

[City Slicker]

@ghotiff, I can relate with what you are saying.

I have that plow through mentality and talking about anything that distresses me sounds trite and hollow and insignificant when I would attempt to talk about it with the therapist I saw briefly a while back - it was only recently that I started to see how PTSD has impacted my life despite that I have still times when I don't believe any of it.

I think it's just part of the coping mechanism for me - times the coping mechanism saved me and times it majorly gets in the way.

I am not seeing a therapist but I sure felt the way you described.

 

[ghotiff]

trite and hollow and insignificant

Yes, this exactly.

Also I think with childhood trauma there is no "before", I've always been this way. If I keep my world small enough (to limit triggers and stressors) then I'm usually okay. To someone else this lifestyle would seem really limiting, but to me it's normal, and not a cause for complaint.

Small example. I prefer to read and watch on Tv things that I've already read/watched and that I know are "safe" for me. After over a decade of marriage my husband is getting frustrated seeing me watch/read the same stuff...but I still enjoy it.