Sufferer Introducing Myself; My Story In Brief

[agirls]

Hi I'm new here. I've lurked on and off but just finally joined today. I was diagnosed with PTSD in late 2013 after going to therapy to deal with my anger. I thought it would be an easy fix and never expected this. My PTSD stems from emotional abuse and neglect, ongoing sexual abuse, stalking by the perpetrator after I no longer gave him access to me. The stalking lasted until I was 30 and the abuse started when I was around 10. I became an alcoholic at 17 and underwent 14 months of inpatient therapy. Life seemed relatively normal for a while after that, but my trauma was exacerbated further by my husband having a heart attack two weeks before our wedding (I was 30, he was 38), a very difficult and complicated miscarriage, followed by the births of both of my daughters very prematurely, resulting in hospital stays of 7 weeks and 4 weeks before they could come home. I went to therapy in 2013, thinking I just needed to deal with my anger. By the third session, my therapist knew there was way more going on. It's been a rough 2 1/2 years: flashbacks, dissociation, massive anxiety I'm definitely better, but a recent triggering event threw me for a loop. This whole thing can get really exhausting. My therapist pulled me out of work for most of this week to regain some physical and emotional stamina after the major trigger emerged. So here I am.

 

[EveHarrington]

Welcome! :)

I'm so glad you decided to join.

 

[Mytime]

Welcome to the forum. So glad you found us. I hope you look around and read some post. Just know you are not alone,and we are here to support you when you need us.

 

[agirls]

Thank you!!

 

[Mytime]

agirls hoping your feeling a little better. My husband had a heart attack in August at the age of 44. Do to his PTSD (he was symptomatic at the time) it was a very scary time for me, and a trigger. You must be so busy with twins. But I know you wouldn't change it for the world. I have 3 children and know how stressful it can be. I can't imagine the stress of twins, two little people needing you at the same time. Reading your post made me think, you are one very strong woman. You have survived a lot in your life, you have picked yourself up and made changes in your life. I hope you take the time and see the strength in that. So hats off to you. Hugs if you expect

 

[Kailani]

Welcome!!! Glad you reached out and sought help! What a strength! Hope you find help and resources here and anywhere you need them! Taking care of you is also taking care of your kids! Take care and hope you feel better!

 

[agirls]

Hi I'm new here. I've lurked on and off but just finally joined today. I was diagnosed with PTSD in lat...

Thank you! I hope your husband is okay. It's been fifteen years since my husband's. He has taken good care of himself and has been in good health since. Just to clarify, my girls aren't twins. They are almost two years apart. My older was born at 28 weeks gestation weighing 2 lbs 12 oz and the younger born at 30. weeks weighing 3lbs 11 oz. They are in perfect health now 10 and 12 years later. It just took me a long time to get up the courage to go into therapy!!

 

[intothelight]

@agirls Welcome! :)

 

[Deleted member 28403]

Welcome to the forums :hug: I hope this place helps you. It's very useful because of the bulk amount of people who feel similar and understand. There is a lot of advice and support to be found here :) I hope that this amazing community helps you as much as it helped me, reading all the similar stories, and learning a lot along the way. Hugs if you accept :hug: