hello guys ! i am new here ,
i just want to know if i actually have complex ptsd
i suffered from emotional abuse from my parents for like 5 years because i refused to study medicine which was their dream , it was a petty reason and that is why i was so shocked , i noticed how they changed he way they treat me and it hurt me a lot , i spent a lot of times alone , they were neglecting me never cared to ask , sometimes my dad hit me , slapped me , so i can say there was physical abuse as well ,
i have ocd , i knew that 4 years ago and because they were never supportive to me , i kept that to myself i was suffering in silence , i guess it is the trauma that triggered my ocd , after they knew about ocd because of my cleaning rituals they ere not there for me , they mocked me and hit me and told me i was crazy , asked me to stop it like it was my choice ,
i can't live with them , every single day i remember their actions towards me , i can't forget and can't forgive them , no matter what they try to do now , i know they fake it just because they want me to get rid of the ocd ! but i don't believe or trust them anymore , i know they do that just for ocd , they still don't admit that they hurt me they keep saying that i am the one who is too sensitive ,
i don't know what to do , i have panic attacks when i remember the way they treated me , now i am having a panic attack while writing this post , i lost a lot of friends i just distance myself for no reason , i want to be alone , like i don't trust a single person
i read that if you have ptsd you should face the trauma , i am facing them everyday already and i am not feeling better towards them , i take medications that just make me forget for a while but i still can't trust them they hurt me a lot !
i just want to know if i actually have complex ptsd
i suffered from emotional abuse from my parents for like 5 years because i refused to study medicine which was their dream , it was a petty reason and that is why i was so shocked , i noticed how they changed he way they treat me and it hurt me a lot , i spent a lot of times alone , they were neglecting me never cared to ask , sometimes my dad hit me , slapped me , so i can say there was physical abuse as well ,
i have ocd , i knew that 4 years ago and because they were never supportive to me , i kept that to myself i was suffering in silence , i guess it is the trauma that triggered my ocd , after they knew about ocd because of my cleaning rituals they ere not there for me , they mocked me and hit me and told me i was crazy , asked me to stop it like it was my choice ,
i can't live with them , every single day i remember their actions towards me , i can't forget and can't forgive them , no matter what they try to do now , i know they fake it just because they want me to get rid of the ocd ! but i don't believe or trust them anymore , i know they do that just for ocd , they still don't admit that they hurt me they keep saying that i am the one who is too sensitive ,
i don't know what to do , i have panic attacks when i remember the way they treated me , now i am having a panic attack while writing this post , i lost a lot of friends i just distance myself for no reason , i want to be alone , like i don't trust a single person
i read that if you have ptsd you should face the trauma , i am facing them everyday already and i am not feeling better towards them , i take medications that just make me forget for a while but i still can't trust them they hurt me a lot !
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