This has been a rather rough road and it has been exhausting.
I've recently been diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder. I've been fighting a system not wanting to properly care for me. I mean, they're all very negligent. At the same time I almost feel guilty like I'm manipulating the system to get something I don't need or don't deserve.
Of course I feel like I am manipulating the system to try and gain something I don't need and don't deserve. My reaching out for help has never been met with any positive responses. There has been some positive responses but such positive responses have been few and far between.
Of course I feel abandoned when my family don't exactly rush to come visit me in hospital when I almost die or don't return my calls. Would that not be a normal feeling to have?
I am in the process of wondering how likely I can get Compensation to accept aggravation of my BPD when I actively engage is self harm? I had such thoughts when I was younger but never crossed that line. Now it seems to be the only thing that seems to reset my nervous system when everything gets to be too much for me. They should accept me as is and understand that just maybe having BPD makes PTSD slightly worse and that PTSD aggravates BPD. They should accept this but I think they're gonna fight me all the way until I'm homeless and if I end up homeless I might just
myself but they all seem to think I'm exaggerating.
I can't win in a system like this.
I've recently been diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder. I've been fighting a system not wanting to properly care for me. I mean, they're all very negligent. At the same time I almost feel guilty like I'm manipulating the system to get something I don't need or don't deserve.
Of course I feel like I am manipulating the system to try and gain something I don't need and don't deserve. My reaching out for help has never been met with any positive responses. There has been some positive responses but such positive responses have been few and far between.
Of course I feel abandoned when my family don't exactly rush to come visit me in hospital when I almost die or don't return my calls. Would that not be a normal feeling to have?
I am in the process of wondering how likely I can get Compensation to accept aggravation of my BPD when I actively engage is self harm? I had such thoughts when I was younger but never crossed that line. Now it seems to be the only thing that seems to reset my nervous system when everything gets to be too much for me. They should accept me as is and understand that just maybe having BPD makes PTSD slightly worse and that PTSD aggravates BPD. They should accept this but I think they're gonna fight me all the way until I'm homeless and if I end up homeless I might just