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I HAD FLASHBACKS RECENTLY...IT Was also anniversary date. But 15 yrs. for God Sake...how long will this last. So there's that. I rode the wave. Ended up with sinus infection Im treating for......Was getting sick of feeling disgusted (many more things Im not mentioning). Anyway, I took a couple...

I did not realize until recently, that my husband with PTSD ( who denies such) has a lazy lover syndrome that is related to his PTSD. I know there is is no documentation of all of this, but I do believe it exists. He was diagnosed with Passive Aggressive Disorrder and that Would explain some of...

My husband is bad at sex. I know it sounds judgmental, after all, who the hell am I. When we me, I had been the victim of a marital rape, quite regularly. So when sex wasn't a priority, I was glad. First guy I met that was this way to be honest. It was refreshing. Then when we did have sex, he...

I can't believe it is happening again. I was assaulted by a cop Dec 16, 2008. I am getting along pretty good. I do have issues. I haven't cried in all these years. Also, I have a great deal of empathy for others, but dont express it as I use too. Its like things dont effect me because I am numb...

The recent school shooting is creating a lot of negative feeling within me for humans in general. While its such a fraction of people that do such things, some of the garbage about it is even more hurtful. I read a post last night on fb that insinuated that its due to de-instituionalization...

When Stop means Go....When No means Maybe.... Im freaking old and would think this issue would have stopped by now. I don't go out or do stupid shit....but its evidently not me or my age. In 2015, I was 57 yrs old. My husband and I were trying to rebuild a relationship after long separation. He...

I have been doing pretty well past months. I quit smoking 11 days ago and have been doing fair with that, though thoughts and emotions are coming up.Talked to my husband tonight about my control issues. Its hard to separate because he is a hoarder and I want things cleaned up. So the...

I know its been very stressful for everyone for months now, and I am not alone. Husband lost job of 40 yrs in January. Self funded and had not paid our medical bills in months. Not much one can do about that-as I learned. Jumped thru all the hoops, not having insurance. Had to push him to file...

Saturday my neighbor approached me while I was out in my yard. Our back yards but up against each other and my pool is just a few feet from my fence. She told me that she intended to build a chicken coop in her yard but discovered that she needed special permission regarding zoning int he city...

I guess December has many bad memories. Its my birthday. My mother died in december, as did my nephew. Most of all, I was assaulted in my home, had a gun to my head, and was drug away by a cop the thought I was someone else. It was freezing and I was poorly dressed in the middle of the night...

I read many forums that are very specific. Some of the topics get way over my head...for where I am now. I am just wondering if anyone really cares about supporting anyone else, seems to always be a motive ( compare selves, one up, more knowledge, got the answer if you would just follow...

Almost 33 yrs of marriage with a big separation period ( 10 plus yrs). We are back together but not the way he would like it. It works for out grown kids and retirement. I won't go in to past of passive aggressive behaviors, but for me to tell this, it sounds like I am nuts-or he is almost...

I am feeling fear tonight. I stood up to my husband that threw a fit. All day I asked him to help me clean this big house and he avoided. Tonight he wanted to know what was wrong and I avoided talking about it. Finally he turned off the tv and became insistent. So I told him. Then he made all...

For the past 3 yrs, I have stayed in bed 20 hours a day except maybe once a week. There are other reasons than loneliness that have caused this, and i have assumed that to be the case. Next week, I am going to the beach with my husband and dog. I have been in a panic state. Not sure why. My dog...

Pink Floyd/Eclipse/Brain Damage is a song that I both love and hate. It reminds me of my teens, of the crazy world, of my sister (7 yr apart but something we shared), of my own brain injury. It is so much more that I can even explain. It reminds me of presidents past and politics, of the ways of...

I know that early childhood trauma and ptsd cause many illnesses, and many that I have are related. My ptsd symptoms have been getting better over the past couple years but my health problems have worsened. (fibromyalgia, irritable bowel syndrome, headaches, myofacial pain, disc and muscular...

I don't really know what is wrong with me or what to do about it. I have been violently sexually assaulted int my younger day and done nothing and " got over it" I suppose. I have been in positions where I froze and had sex when I did not want to. I don't blame the guy for that, I never said...

About a month ago my dog was sick and had to have abdominal surgery. She came home fine but about 5 days later had an episode where she fell over and couldn't get up, was weak, tremors, gazed, etc. Got her in hospital and Dr said it wasn't good. By the next day, she was walking again and 95%...

I recently came across information on "dysania" and another term that describes people that can not get out of bed. Of course depression is what comes to mind but even when I don't feel really depressed, an argument goes on in my head to get up. Sometimes I will brush teeth and wash face and...

My husband is pretty generous with me. It was my birthday last week and he bought me nice boots. My dog ate my favorite sweater and he replaced it. He makes a good living and puts everything on a credit card and pays it monthly. He pays all the bills. Today we went Christmas shopping and bought...

I don't know if others have been through anything similar, but I have finally accepted the relationship I have with my daughters. It didn't happen over-night, so it didn't just happen, but my acceptance has been growing stronger up to this point and I am sure will get even stronger. My 2...

When I was first diagnosed with ptsd ( 2 yrs after a complicated head injury), I had nightmares, general anxiety, panic attacks, depression. I continued to stay busy but was jumpy and agitated. I felt like I was spinning my wheels and getting nowhere. My low blood pressure became elevated often...

I attend a group for adult children of alcoholics. I am almost 60 and worked through the issues surrounded by being an Adult Child of Alcoholic many years ago, and for that -life was much better. I had not been diagnosed with ptsd at that time.Then it spiraled downward about 10 yrs ago. Soon I...

I recently read an article about "Depressive Realism"- a theory that people suffering from depression may actually have a more realistic view than non depressed persons. However, non depressed people tend to have rose colored lens's which produces more positive thoughts and better immune system...

My husband agreed to help me clean out garage and shed. He wants me to take amphetamines that my dr does not want me to take so I can get more work done in repairs around the house. But this evening, he agreed to help me. We emptied most of shed and he took something to garage and didn't come...