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Flying high tonight as my prayers have finally been answered. I've got a registered, trauma trained therapist, who is a Vet, and knows where I'm coming from! To add to my happiness, the all important first date went well. Something tells me I'm going to sleep easy tonight.🫠

I am really happy tonight as I've been freaking about my "switching off" moments which can last up to 10 minutes and finally found out why. There is no apparent trigger apart from I'm not too happy with life at that time. Problem is I haven't got a "graduated" emotion switch. So I'm either...

GP (Doctor) first. I know nothing about PTSD, but come back and see me next week. Agency One. First "therapist" I've seen since the late 1980's, (no one told me he wasn't registered), a bit weird, and was regularly upsetting me big time, but he's history now. Agency Two. A trainee...

Met a "prospective social group leader" today. Young guy, full of new outside activities. (Spoiler) It kinda didn't go well. After his potted history (nowt impressive or even noteworthy), the suggestions for activities started. 1. Wellness walks. Couple of miles. No can do as my legs are FUBAR...

Night time, and I can't fight off my demons anymore. It goes like this. Combat exposed me to horrific things. After 30 years plus of coping, BANG! They're back, in glorious color.. The flashbacks I can cope with but the nightmares are not nice. Not nice at all. I see, feel, smell, hear, and...

Background: Go see your doctor says the media and ask for help. I did and ARGH! Officially it's CPTSD, and I'm having my first uncontrollable relapse in 34 years. The "Treatment" started in October, after 10 months on a waiting list. Which I suppose is pretty good for the UK's NHS. Treatment...

It's the 'unregulated' media's fault for being too graphic in it's coverage of what's going on in Ukraine. That and me drawing an association with what I lived through 37 years ago. It's triggered a powerful need to get involved again. Something that is stupid as I'm a physically and mentally...

Driving home today in not the best of weather. Cold, sleet, then heavy rain, and 60mph gusts. You might say a bit stressful for a fit person but I had no choice, it was me or no one to collect something from town, 14 miles away. Humidity was high, windows forever steaming up, down country lanes...

The Story first. I nearly flipped today when I got a call from a NEW therapist I have never seen or talked to, who wants me to rewrite my nightmares with a happy ending. He went on, "Then, when I next fight that nightmare, it won't worry me as it will have a "Happy Ending"." That might work for...

After a day of loads of pressure brought about by having to visit a town full of triggers. I'm tired out, mentally shot, and just want to go to sleep. Except I'm sat here, typing and nervously looking at my damn pillow. I've got to know what I am in for prior to falling asleep and tonight I...

How would you explain to a therapist what 6th sense is (which he denies exists) and how damaging it can be to your decision making, and determination, to carry out a task?

My Tinnitus. Gets worse depending on what state my PTSD is. Anxiety, stress, lack of sleep, sort of thing. Add SWMBO getting well angry as she talks to me but I can't hear her. Ouch, the occasional bruise happens. So I went for a hearing test today. Now I know why I get to hear a mans voice...

This is not an angry question, I'm just asking for your thoughts. My therapist. She wanted to talk about my flashbacks and nightmares. I knew there was a difference but this little gem caught me unawares. "You know when you are having a nightmare"as you are awake!" WTH? I'm asleep, reliving an...

It goes like this. I was a news junkie until this latest relapse into PTSD. So I forced myself to cut back to a quick glance at the headlines, the weather, and the lottery numbers. Which was working but my past keeps on cropping up by way of old buds checking in. We all do it but occasionally...

This is all down to the latest gift from my PTSD. Last night I finally got 5 hours sleep. Only waking at 3am isn't exactly perfect. I keep a tally of my hours slept and it reads pretty poorly. "3 hours last night, woke twice, finally gave up". That's a common entry. I now nap during the day...

Journalling. My wife came up with that years ago. She used to do that as a teenager in what she called her "Gripe Book". Next day, she would read what she had written in anger and usually tore out the page, as on a re-read, it was nothing to get worked up about. So I started my own. Except I...

Caught myself sleep walking last night for the first time which is "different" from usual as I'm normally fighting nightmares most of the night. I ended up a good half a mile from home before I woke up. Good job I know the local area well and got back before upsetting anyone. So, apart from...

A bit of a "Not much fun" gripe about whatever happened to face to face? Meanwhile, The suggested treatment for my PTSD is mind adjustment and a shrink messing around inside my head. (No, I don't do medical terminology). Meanwhile, mind adjustment (making my mind think differently) is going...

After a full night's (6 hours) black sleep, i.e. no dreams, or nightmares. Me waking up slowly in my own time, nice breakfast, then into town. WHAM! Switch thrown, there was no way I could remember anything including SWMBO's name! Every decision needing thinking about I couldn't easily...

In case folk don't know, the UK is in turmoil now a new government has taken over. Free speech can result in prison and Christianity is under attack from "another religion". We have to drive to our nearest town for a lot of our shopping and got caught up in two protests which we wanted no part...

A Story. Recently I was attending a business meeting and award shindig. Didn't want to but the host was a long time friend who thought it might help me to mingle. So I started with up two notches on my stress meter as I hate gatherings. I live in Amber (Jeff Coopers colour code) so I was...

Nice thing about charity based help groups? When they say they are going to get things done, they usually do. So next week both myself and wife (SWMBO) are talking to two separate therapists. One for me, and one for SWMBO. It took just one email and a chat on the phone. Nice bit about it is...

Aside from PTSD, I've lived a very hard physical life with multiple irreversible (some progressive) injuries that have caught up with me in old age. I've just had a knock back which was the last thing I needed as I'm struggling really hard with a resurgence of my PTSD. Only it was HOW that knock...

Another day, another charity, but no real help outside of friendship. I'm not knocking all the mental health charities because some of them do good work . However wouldn't it be nice to actually get some CLINICAL HELP, indeed any help, from the UK's NHS mental heath system? It's coming up for 7...

I know, I've got to be crackers moving house when dealing with PTSD. I mean what could be more stressful? Yet, since leaving the forces in the 80's, it's kinda in me to move on every seven years or so and, after every move, I'd have 4-6 years of calm, no nightmares or flashbacks. Then came the...