18 And Suffered For A While

[codyinpain]

I'm 18 and ive been diagnosed since I was 15. I witnessed my father and tried to phisicaly stop him from killing himself when I was a freshman in highschool. 14 years old and I had to see this.

I handeled mulestaion abuse and poverty in my life but this can't leave my head no matter how hard I try everything seems pointless. I cant find energy for anything my life is concumed with this memory of my father never leaving and never getting better.

I've been in the mental hospital 2 times for breakdowns and burning words into my arm. I used to burn and cut but don't no more, but I miss it, I need a release without drugs or cutting and I don't know what to do my life sucks, bad flashbacks, bad ptsd, bad depression my life is just bad.

 

[Froggie]

Welcome to the forum codyinpain. How awful to have gone through all that for such a young age. I'm glad that you have found this forum and that you have professional help to help you through. There is a lot of peer support here that will greatly help. Linking arms with you. I lite candles to help each and everyone who is having a bad day, so take advantage of the candle today.