2 Day Long Emotional Flashback?

[stuff]

Had kind of a rough Halloween weekend. Don't really want to go into specifics, but it started with a couple of small triggers on Saturday night, followed by a bigger one on Monday morning. I was an emotional tornado by that afternoon and with the exception of a couple of lulls in the the storm this stuff didn't stop until I had hidden in my bed and cried for about 3 hours straight on Tuesday night. I feel like I lost any control over my life for two whole days, I said things to people I feel I had no control over and I think it's the longest i've ever felt out of control. Has anyone ever experienced this before? I've been doing so well, but just recently hit some bigger stuff in therapy. I don't know if it was just the perfect combination of awful things to rattle me to my very core, or if this is what I can expect for digging deeper. I really frightened myself. I've never been quite that outwardly messy before.

 

[Sandra]

Big hugs for Stuff.

 

[stuff]

Thanks, Sandra.

 

[healingangel90]

I can completely understand how you might feel right now. After starting therapy I would go 2 - 3 days at a time like that. I talked to my therapist about it and we started to take things a little slower just incase it was due to the digging deeper. Maybe try to bring this up in your next session and see if your therapist has any input on it. My therapist said that it's completely normal because you're talking about things you've never really been able to put in words, let alone say out loud and it can bring up a lot of overwhelming emotions. Just remember that things will get better. Keep us updated <3

 

[stuff]

Talked to my T. She thinks I'm doing ok, all things considered. We skipped on EMDR for the day, but she thinks, in light of everything going on in my life right now, that I'm keeping it together and doing pretty well. I'm pretty good at realizing that the dark places I sometimes end up are just my history haunting me. In spite of feeling some pretty awful things, I don't let it control me. Still feel rattled, but at least someone has confidence in me. And, I haven't had a flashback since then, which is nice.