Supporter 20 Years Of Love Gone In Half An Hour.

[simplekindofgirl]

Hi Darren. Hugs your way.

 

[Navy Spouse]

Glad to see you checking back in Darren.

 

[ihatethewordsmyfriends]

Thank you simplekindofgirl. I hope you dont mind being huged back!

 

[simplekindofgirl]

Hugs are always a welcome relief.

 

[ihatethewordsmyfriends]

Sorry I haven't posted. I've sort of moved out of my house. I think it's been good for me. Too depressing.

I walked in on my 17 year old packing up his room and he was all but in tears, so sad.

My 14 year old daughter has come home for a visit and doesn't want to go back to her mothers. She has been through so much. She told me she want to be a kid again. She rang her mum and told her she didn't want to return and her mum got up her! What the hell!

I messaged her saying don't get angry with her or she will never return, she's your daughter not your friend, my wife has changed so much. Now she dont have any of her kids and I feel so sorry for her but there's nothing I can do for her.

She hates me and blames me for it all. She must be so numb. I know the worst thing for me is being home alone when the kids aren't there, it kills me. I Hate it so much. But she seems to be ok with it.

All she does is work and sleep, clean etc. She also ask me to stop telling her I love her. Hurtful.

She said I'm the reason she don't have her kids. I've done nothing but love the woman my hole life. I do all these nice things for her and it all gets thrown back in my face. I'm so sick of being made out to be something I'm not. I'm a good person. Well I hope I am.

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[Marie E.]

(((Ihatethewords)))

 

[ihatethewordsmyfriends]

Thanks marie. You've made me smile. I feel funny asking if its ok to hug you back.

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[Marie E.]

Welcome to the forum and yes I do love hugs!

 

[ihatethewordsmyfriends]

Thank you Navy Spouse. I think I needed to come back.... Besides I missed all you amazing people..:)

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[ihatethewordsmyfriends]

You people are turning me into a big softy..

 

[ihatethewordsmyfriends]

Everyone around me see's Darren the hard man's man. But little do they know inside lies a sad little boy wanting his light to fade so the pain will stop.

 

[ihatethewordsmyfriends]

It take so long just to come just a few steps. With in seconds u can lose those steps and more.
All one can do is hope that tomoorrow will be a little better so u can start and try to move forward again.
Im trying so hard to pick myself up for the sake of my kids. I joke around with them to make them happy but inside iam empty.
I miss the little things.. I miss being loved, That look you get from some one like your there hole world.
U can see it in there eyes, there face . I miss that more then anything.
I miss her. My best friend, My soul mate , My wife. She was my intire world. she was so beautiful in every way. i was so lucky to have found her so young in life. They were a magical 20 years that i wouldndnt change for the world.
I miss telling her i love her ever night.
I miss u my beautiful mate!