Sufferer 2x Childhood Sexual Assault Survivor

[Allegra]

Hey Everyone, I'm a 15 year old girl, and I've browsed this site a number of times and decided it was time to make an account. I'm not gonna go into a ton of depth with my story right now, because that would really be a lot to read, but I'll just give some basic info about my experience. I was first sexually assaulted by another girl when I was 10 years old. I don't really know if it was rape, I haven't processed the event yet. It happened in the shower, and the smell of certain soaps and sometimes the sound of the shower or a bath draining can be very triggering things to me. My second assault occurred when I was 13 years old at a party that I went to with my mom. One of her older male friends assaulted me. I haven't really processed this either, and it tends to trigger me very frequently (things like the smell of beer, the color red for some reason, sometimes even Beatles music), but I think I'll be ready to start processing this event soon. The events were just recently disclosed to my parents by Child Protective Services (a friend of mine ended up reporting the events as well as my history of self harm), so the past month or so has been pretty rough. I also suffer from life long anxiety and depression, which I am on Cymbalta and Ativan for. My medication changes quite a bit, though. Anyways, that's all I can really think to write right now, and honestly, it would be too difficult to go into any further detail. I just don't feel ready yet. I'm so happy to have finally joined this site and I look forward to both receiving and giving support in my time here :)

 

[The Albatross]

Welcome, lots of information here to assist, glad you're here.

 

[Kas_Can_Fly]

Welcome :)

 

[TimeToHeal]

Welcome to the forum, @Allegra! Glad you're here, I think you'll find most of us are a friendly, supportive bunch! :)

 

[Deleted member 20280]

Welcome @Allegra . You have found a safe non judgmental forum to join. :)

 

[intothelight]

Hi Alegra,

Welcome to the forum! There is also a sister forum you may find helpful, MySexAbuse.com. I hope you find these sites beneficial to your healing.

Debbie

 

[Allegra]

Thank you everyone for the warm welcome :)