MarzipanBunny
New Here
Hello, all!
I found this forum through reading Pete Walker's book, and I came across the mention of it right after a very tense couples' therapy session in which I learned it can be really rough on my partner when I vent on Facebook. So this was perfect timing!
I was diagnosed with "chronic PTSD" in 2012 or 2013. Like pretty much everyone here, I'm sure, I've had some really lousy stuff happen to me. My parents definitely love me and had the best intentions, but they made a lot of mistakes because of their own stuff. My first relationship when I was a teenager was intensely emotionally abusive, and like probably everyone who has lived in large cities, I've been jumped a few times.
I've been in and out of therapy for 8 or so years, including a week in inpatient in 2016 (where I received the extra-fun diagnosis of Borderline Personality Disorder). I take antidepressants daily, and they're helpful, and I have anti-anxiety meds to help calm panic attacks.
Right now I feel... Kind of stuck. For a very long time it's just been kind of surviving and scrambling while waiting for the next terrible thing to happen. Right now things seem to have actually slowed down for a bit, and I'm trying to take care of stuff while I have this down time. I'm trying to learn to code and also how to not be terrible to the people I care about because my survival strategies are super messed up.
I found group therapy very helpful and interesting when I was in inpatient, so I'm hoping that space will be like that--somewhere to talk to people who understand but are not personally invested in my stuff, and hopefully occasionally have useful info to share.
Thanks for reading!
I found this forum through reading Pete Walker's book, and I came across the mention of it right after a very tense couples' therapy session in which I learned it can be really rough on my partner when I vent on Facebook. So this was perfect timing!
I was diagnosed with "chronic PTSD" in 2012 or 2013. Like pretty much everyone here, I'm sure, I've had some really lousy stuff happen to me. My parents definitely love me and had the best intentions, but they made a lot of mistakes because of their own stuff. My first relationship when I was a teenager was intensely emotionally abusive, and like probably everyone who has lived in large cities, I've been jumped a few times.
I've been in and out of therapy for 8 or so years, including a week in inpatient in 2016 (where I received the extra-fun diagnosis of Borderline Personality Disorder). I take antidepressants daily, and they're helpful, and I have anti-anxiety meds to help calm panic attacks.
Right now I feel... Kind of stuck. For a very long time it's just been kind of surviving and scrambling while waiting for the next terrible thing to happen. Right now things seem to have actually slowed down for a bit, and I'm trying to take care of stuff while I have this down time. I'm trying to learn to code and also how to not be terrible to the people I care about because my survival strategies are super messed up.
I found group therapy very helpful and interesting when I was in inpatient, so I'm hoping that space will be like that--somewhere to talk to people who understand but are not personally invested in my stuff, and hopefully occasionally have useful info to share.
Thanks for reading!