5 Things I'm Thinking Today

[Muttly]

1) so dissy today. keep switching. headaches and buzzing head. blah.
2) I'm not sure that's true. I hope @Ronin and @JadesJewel are right, but I feel like I've known people who have all these intentions but the patterns of behavior don't meet up
3) hmm... bunny is being rowdy. I should let her romp outside today
4) I had a 4th thought. what was it?
5) ok, I'm going to try to do some chores. maybe chores will calm the thoughts down. maybe then I can actually think. first...pet care

 

[Tinyflame]

Thank you @Anrish , @Bearlinda @Ronin @JadesJewel @WishfulThinking123 @Muttly @Rain ,

they've given you so much, though. May they rest in peace

-yes.

I know SI is undesirable, or supposed to be. I really am trying.

If it ever comes to homelessness, I can't take that. Not after the rest.

Hugs to all xoxox.

 

[Justmehere]

Always erasing the picture that is my life and redrawing.

I can so relate to this...

1.) what is up with all the spiders in my apartment today?
2.) what would successfully reaching my goals feel like?
3.) where are my keys?
4.) why does my dog eat EVERYTHING?
5.) what do I do about my total lack of focus today?

 

[Deleted member 37085]

2) I'm not sure that's true. I hope @Ronin and @JadesJewel are right, but I feel like I've known people who have all these intentions but the patterns of behavior don't meet up

First I've just about stopped comparing myself to others and what and where they are in their lives. For many wear masks and puff themselves up and no one knows what truly goes on behind closed doors (progress not perfection). And I don't give a flying flip about others intentions or behaviors as long as they're not messin' with me then they seem to make it my business. That said @Muttly:) believe that @Ronin and I believe until you are good friend in here and perhaps later you may begin to also believe some good stuff about yourself as that is what I've been doing. People compliment me and my brain tries to immediately dump:banghead::bawling::blackeye: the compliment or dissect it:eek: like a frog in Biology 101.:hug: instead of just taking the compliment given and telling my brain to shut the blank up!:hug::hug::hug: (((hugs!))) for @Muttly!

I know SI is undesirable or supposed to be. I really am trying.

Oh Junebug, yes you are really trying precious one! Again so sorry for loss at work! And yes those decades of me thinking I wanted to leave but I really only wanted to stop the unrelenting and unyielding extreme pain which caused me to cut, and overdose on Rx medications and I so get S/I. I wanted to say that progress will come just don't give up @Junebug and I am not doing this (cutting/o'ding now) and I thank God I'm not still trying to leave and you stay the course you will start to dump the destructive :poop::poop::poop: and grab hold of the life preserver (coping skills, forum ptsd educational data and instruction, therapy intervention, etc). ...for these tools all have and continue to be part of my journey of trying to heal. And I hate @Junebug that you are hurting so badly! Don't let go!!! I so care! (((hugs!)))!!!:hug::hug::hug::hug::hug::hug::hug:

 

[Heather]

:hug: @Junebug

 

[Heather]

Thank you @JadesJewel

 

[Tinyflame]

Thank you @JadesJewel and @Heather :hug: .

 

[jaccat]

Why do I self sabotage?
Is it fear?
There's got to be a better way of tackling this.
I really don't know where my head is at.
It's going to be another long day.

 

[Ronin]

1. Lemongrass scent washing out everything.
2. That anger was short lasting and sadness-grief, y'a both can stay in your lane.
3. Nevermind. No need to think. There's painkillers, a long line of mottos, and more lemongrass.

 

[Deleted member 37085]

1. Need to learn to be more vigilant about doc's prescriptions (before he does damage to my body/mind)...geez!!!!!!
2. Finally...now have D.B.T. self-help Workbook (picked up from B&N yesterday...and can start learning how to better self-regulate, etc.
3. Cancelled:angelic: T's appt. for today due to thyroid issues. I'm sure he's not very pleased...hey I gave 24hr. notice...and I'm important too...
4. Lemongrass scent sounds like it'd smell:cp: oh so nice! @Ronin...
5. Oh, friend:hug: just called & I've got to be ready to go shoppin' and also lunch in less than an hour...so gotta go now...

Just wanted to say I too self-sabotage @jaccat, just less and less...please try and don't beat self up...:hug:
@Junebug and @Heather:hug::hug:

 

[Heather]

Still waiting... Or is the craziness over?

Preparing for worst hoping for best

Made 19th trip to financial aid. Hoping its all resolved. Will know in day or two

My kitty slept with me again last night...did I say how soft and fuzzy she is?

I only have 4

 

[Anrish]

1. I have to accept so much - mostly myself. It seems like an impossible task.
2. Why are some people as arrogant as the night is dark?!
3. My brain works better today - more focused.
4. Run away but where to? Ture, are you still waiting for me?
5. Need some dinner - low blood sugar means low mood.