A New Chapter: What Does Healing Feel Like for You?

[Susan Jane]

i’m still deep in it, but have also come pretty far i think. saw this and realised what healing looks like for me right now is being able to have an awful morning / half a day and then being able to get up and pick up the day from there, instead of marking it as totalled and wallowing until the next one.

woke up at 4 and had a terrible traumatic relapse heavy morning from then, a real winding-back-8-months-of-progress day, and ive just got dressed and washed my face and brushed my teeth. going to eat some oranges now. it’s not much but it is progress, healing.
i can have days like that and not condemn it as wasted and conclude that i should figuratively just kill myself for the day. it’s self-compassion. in a very unconscious way but it is.

i dont have to do it perfect; i can have a real disaster however much of the day, and then let myself have it be nice once that’s over.
letting myself stand up instead of kicking while i’m already down.

This is something I am learning. I have had many days like this in the last four months and I am trying this method out now! Thank you for your post, it makes me feel hope.

 

[Survivor3]

Healing for the past 2/3 months has been me on autopilot, upholding my responsibilities and paying attention. Thinking about the positives whilst feeling the burn. Today as i write this memo it's 16.24pm and if I can maybe read a little and rest and eat then ill take those little wins on top what what I've already done today. Tommorow I play sax, see my mum and then see my friends in the evening. Nice.

I'm just trying to love life, love myself, love others I guess.