About to go into patial hospitalization

[willhealeventually]

My ptsd symptoms were triggered by a mess of events all coming together and causing so much stress that now my switch has turned off. I went into dissociation from all life responsibilities.
My psychiatrist wanted me to go into partial in November, but I wanted to hang in there. Whennthe switch went off inside me and I just shut down, I have no choice now.
It’s a terrible time of the year to take a leave from work. I was on the phone with colleagues trying to plan my absence. I was getting stressed the entire conversation because they want ne to come in after school is out to make copies and prepare my lesson plans.
If I could function like that I wouldn’t be taking a leave in the first place.
I can’t even completely check out like I need to...

 

[somerandomguy]

I'm sorry you're going through this @willhealeventually.

You may have to be a little bit selfish right now and deal with the fallout later. If you can't function, you can't function.

I hope your hospitalization helps you.

 

[willhealeventually]

You may have to be a little bit selfish right now and deal with the fallout later. If you can't function, you can't function.

I agree. It’s just that I’m worried about the fallout. I hope I will feel better and want to have a job to come back to. It’s a tough balance to leave but also not dump too much on my collegues.
I so badly want to feel better. I am also terrified of all the intensive therapy in partial. As a side note, I am terrified of all the paperwork to fill out because I feel my cognitive abilities are way down and I can’t think.