Yeah, I agree. I think I find the women sexy because I wish I had bodies like them, perhaps? I'm more turned on by watching a man have sex with a woman than saying he wants to have sex with me. I think it all has to do with body image. Although when I was in grade school I kind of had a crush on 2 girls in my class. Not sexual, but just liked them I guess? Perhaps I wanted to be like them. But as far as relationships go, I like men. I get along better with men for the most part. Most women I've met in my life have been too catty and drama-prone for my taste. It saddens me, though, that I've never had a close female friend. The last and only "close" female friend I had totally destroyed my life. So she wasn't really ever a friend. Long story, but, once again, I befriended someone who was abusive and jealous of me instead of a true friend. Because of her, I lost a lot and started my battle with clinical depression. I always wanted a "girlfriend" to hang out with and be close to; like a sister. But I guess just having my boyfriend is good enough. Now at least I have someone. Before I met him, I truly had nobody in my life.
