Acknowledging V Accepting - Opinions Wanted

[Jimmy1]

Hey all, I can't find the thread, but the love of my life is reading a book on relationships and basically how to live with someone who has PTSD. It's not just Combat PTSD either. So thank you to the lady who mentioned the book title. I will post more comments when I have read it.

Anyway, Margaret (the love of my life), asked me about 'Acknowledging and Accepting'. She said that I have acknowledged that I have PTSD, and have learnt a great deal about it, I am self aware of my feelings, but have I truly accepted it. My answer was 'No' in some areas.

Well this is my conundrum. I showed Marg some of my files from my psychiatrist. Where he said I was unable to function well in society, unable to maintain a stable relationship, etc, etc.

I had to function in order to raised my son and manage my house. And with relationships, it was always the other half who walked because they could not handle it. Mind you, it was so hard, and is so hard to manage. As Christian is only 13, I can't expect him to go do my shopping because I feel like ripping the throats out of everyone who looks at me funny. I just have to do it.

So my question is, if I am to totally be able to manage my PTSD, I have to accept it into my life.
And if I have to accept what the professionals say, I would not have been able to function. So maybe, the so called professionals had better mention that there is a way to manage a semi-normal way of life.

Am I rambling or do I make sense. ????

Jimmy

 

[BV101]

No that makes sense to me. I think if you get through things and cope, like oooh simple stuff, such as raising kids etc, then clearly there must be something going on upstairs that works.

Although ripping peoples throats out in the shop isn't good. I always go for kicking them to death.

 

[Jimmy1]

lmao, one of my mates on a previous PTSD course, chased a guy in his car for about 10 km because he thought he was looking and his girlfriend. The guy ended up parking out the front of a Police Station, just to get away.

Another bloke I know got kicked out of a post office because the person behind the counter did not hear him correctly and asked him to speak up.

I have managed to get some control and am fairly self aware now, but as I mentioned, I just cant ask someone else to do things for me and don't think I could even if I had the opportunity to. I feel like it would be giving in and letting the disorder take control, but on the other hand, it would be common sense not to tempt fate.