Sexual Assault Am Done With This

[Tina]

Am sorry but I can't live with the idea of hurting another in the past. It's just not my character but abused has destroyed me and I feel it's to late for me. Life is hard anyway but when something like this happens, it's just not with living anymore.being dead is so much better then living as a monster and please don't try to talk me out of it. f*ck off!

 

[cherryblossom]

@Tina , I'm sorry to hear you feel so destroyed, and suicidal.

However, suicidal posting is not allowed upon this forum.

Suicidal posting draws members who are already suffering depression and suicidal ideation into your vortex in an attempt to save you. Indirectly, a suicidal person will drag another depressed person further downwards and towards suicide. This is why it's not allowed upon MySexualAbuse.

You may discuss suicidal ideation. The distinctive difference between suicidal ideation and suicidal intent is:

• Suicidal ideation is clearly stated by being thoughts, ie. I want to drive into every power pole I pass when driving, but I have no intention of doing it.
• Suicidal intent is clearly defined as you have plans and are going to execute that plan, ie. Well, I have said my goodbyes, paid my bills, made my plans to die, I am off to kill myself.

Even though the second may be a scream for help, it’s a vortex to drag already depressed persons with you.

If you’re suicidal you need to contact local emergency departments and your countries suicide help line (or equivalent) to seek help.

Please seek real life support.

 

[Kristen]

Tina ....I am not a counselor or therapist & I am not in any position to help you in depth with this ...but I can & am strong enough to lend you some advice & words of encouragement from one survivor to another. ...Tina, I understand how you feel because I have been there myself & have felt the same feelings you are going through now, but you need to know that nothing is "wrong" with you ...absolutely nothing. What was wrong is what happened to you. I don't know you, but I am sure that you are amazing, talented & beautiful in your own right & have a tremendous amount to give. Tina, don't, absolutely do not allow what your perpetrator did destroy you!!! ...You deserve life, joy & happiness. Life can be very tough, but we survivors have to just take baby steps to get where we wanna go & be where we wanna be in life. If you don't get yourself some counseling & some professional help, & you spiral down into the depths of hell, then your abuser wins ....don't give them that satisfaction ....through counseling you can find the strength to lead a really positive & healthy life, despite what was done to you. You can conquer & prevail, but you need to talk to someone on a professional level. Please don't take your life, you ARE precious. My therapist told me that what happened to you doesn't define you & she was right ...it doesn't define us. You hold on & try to be strong ...& please, please seek a therapist. The trauma that we have been put through is way too much of a burden for us to carry on our own. A counselor is there to help, & they will. You need to hang in there & stay strong & believe that things will get better because they will. ...My thoughts are with you.