Am I Ready?

[Crow]

I lived in a small town in Alaska for a year but came back South thinking I was in love with the abusive a@#h#%€ that I left once before. I left again 3 months after arriving in the lower 48. That was 15 years ago. Lately I've been feeling the pull back to Alaska. I'm 10 years into a job that I am more than bored with. Tonight I randomly searched for fed jobs in the town I love and found a similar position I'm doing now but w a different agency. I'm doubtful I'd quality bc I'm not a veteran so my points will be low even with a,BQ. But I'm wondering if I should even try. T says I have about 5 years more of trauma therapy. Job closes Fri so I may apply and talk to T next week. Scary to think I'm functional enough to be successful.

 

[Friday]

Someone told me once... That time (5 years) will pass no matter what. What you make of it? Where you go, what you do, what you have at the end of it? That's on you. May as well make the best of it, then, neh?