An Alter Tried To Kill Me

[Ronin]

Well given antidepressants may and often do heighten suicidality, and in D.I.D. people suicidality can manifest in ways like that - violence toward the body or the host, I wouldn't rule it out.

That something is a specific to D.I.D. expression doesn't mean it's a D.I.D. centric problem.

 

[Deleted member 28403]

Hmm, but an alter has been periodicaly suicidal for a while even before I started with SSRI, but recently, a lot old symptims have returned

 

[shimmerz]

SSRI's were never a good thing for me. It isn't a given that they will be helpful. If you can, have someone watch you when you switch drugs around. It is always my first thing to consider when I have changed drugs/dosages when I start having dangerous reactions. And with me and SSRI's there were many. When I wasn't a complete zombie on them, I would be running (my form of self harm). There seemed to be no middle ground.

I completely understand your hesitation about hospitalization. I learned along the way that no help was better than bad help. Bad help can just add to the traumatization.

 

[Deleted member 28403]

Nothing such repeated in the past few days, but now I'm back home, and its nearly 3:30AM and I'm sorta too scared to sleep. I cannot all asleep, hypervigiliance severe and medium panic... wondering what to do.

 

[hodge]

Sael, hon, maybe watch some comforting videos? I posted one from a guy named something like Hawardy. Check it out. There's a beautiful clip from Serbia. And tons of other places.

 

[hodge]

Ah, it's Hayder.