Analogy: My Ptsd Feels Like...

[KP the nut]

Why is it the only time I can have genuine emotion is when I am with my K-9 companions?

Because they are the ones who see us as whole, who love us unconditionally, they know we are hurting and it is in their nature to care for us and share our pain. They are so uncomplicated, never judge, need so little to be happy, never have a harsh word, always take our side................................................................

 

[Reclusive]

I aspire to the virtue of pets.

 

[Teddy]

My wife took me to see a new Puppy today. Why is it the only time I can have genuine emotion is when I am with my K-9 companions?

I think it takes a dog to truely understand how you feel and therefore they give you the love you need.
I would be lost without my dogs. I just bought two new pups and they are the only things that can reach my heart these days. they love me with no conditions so I give it back the same I guess

 

[BloomInWinter]

Like I'm wrecked and washed up upon some desolate island....

 

[Ron]

Feels like my mind telling me in it's own way that it wants to let out the pain once and for all.

 

[OKRADLAK]

I am surprised how many of us feel it like sharp things and closed in things.

Like being is a cage with 1,000 razor blades set at a certain distance to cause horrible pain and no death.

 

[KP the nut]

My PTSD makes me feel like a v badly made James Bond Martini - both shaken and stirred

 

[BrazenBull]

it feels like, i am out in the middle of nowhere in the dark and people cant see me.

 

[just me here]

it feels like I am screaming but not making noise, running but not moving, trying to be a part of the world but standing and watching it twirl by like a kid waiting for the merry go round to slow down so I can get on.

I feel like I am forced to rethink my view of happy and sucessful to include more survival type stuff and less feeling like I am a part of my community and work and family.

Like I am trying to listen to a great peice of music but can't hear anything over the sound of the background noise of self hatred and anger and rage, both mine and that of others.

 

[femaleveteran]

today my PTSD feels like a really bad fever (which I do actually have thanks to a bad infection from my recent leg surgery)....aspirin only makes the fever get worse and plus it makes my stomach hurt really bad.......however what else can you realy do for a fever.......I wonder if I should soak my brain in an ice bath like what they did to my body while I was in the hospital with the Osteomyelitis and a 103+ fever over the last few weeks??? Guess then my PTSD would feel like being on Clonapin....numb and uncaring.

 

[rachael1828]

Right now, my PTSD feels like I'm in a snow ball fight on a really snowy day. Snowballs are coming from all directions, every once in a while one hits me in the head and really gets me worked up. I try to throw snowballs back, but I have no clue where to aim. So, I decided to find whoever the heck it was that threw that one that hit me in the head. I find their trail, only to realize that after a few footprints, the rest of the tracks covered by new snow. And then another snowball hits me in the head.

 

[Tim McDonough]

I always feel like I'm being watched by a gang of thugs. The meds, Bailey and therapy tell me theres nobody there, yet I know there is . Always on guard like a coiled viper. The slightest thing can trigger the vipers primal instinct to strike. Sometimes I'm afraid of myself and what I can do when provoked ; even worse when my PTSD feels we are being provoked. how do you reintergrate into society when all you have known your whole adult life is death and destruction?