Anger Attacks?

[evergreen]

Beverly, do you feel nauseaus prior to vomitting?

 

[Philippa]

I do feel like certain people deliberately set me off - but it's critical to take 100% responsibility for my own actions/ reactions.

Yes, true. I felt disappointed that I did let her get to me and that I did react instead of act. I'm responsable for that. I knew what she was trying to do, and I held out for a while, and then reverted.

I can't control what others do, and can't make excuses for what I do.

Totally.

The best I can do is to stay away from people who set me off - it's up to me to do whatever it takes to prevent my unacceptable behaviors.

Well, I haven't spoken to or seen her for over a year now, so until I am better at controlling my reactions it's best to stay away.

 

[Belle]

Yes I have a lot of anger and rage. I need to talk to my therapist about what to do about it?

I want revenge. My whole life has changed and I feel isolated. Who wouldn't feel angry?

I think it is normal but the feelings are overpowering.

 

[rowean]

I think it is normal but the feelings are overpowering.

I lost it today and took it out on the poor shower. Unfortunately for me I think the shower won. My hand, not so much. So, tomorrow, day one with yet another new T and I may have to start off explaining why I have my hand in a brace. Even if I try to be sly and not wear the brace the split knuckle and swelling will not be so easy to hide. Felling pretty stupid but then I get mad all over again.

Got a call into the doc about my meds because this is not okay.

Belle - I now that it is normal because I have been through this before, but it still freaks me out, and the overpowering aspect of it is frightening. I am struggling with the fact that I had dealt with all this and just recently got triggered again so I am kinda getting a double whammy because I get a rage attack and then get angry that I am getting angry. :mad:

Some of the things to do about it (and honestly I am writing this for myself as much as for you, let's just see if I can practice what I preach):rolleyes:
* go for a run or some kind of work out - running or kick boxing is my favorite because it exhausts me, the problem is it is not always practicle - I can't just leave work or my son to go work out.
* write - this can help if I can calm down enough to actually write
* do some yoga - sometimes just running through a series of sun salutations can refocus me and I don't need to have any equipement nor specific clothing, just a quiet space - I can do this in my office.
* phone a friend - this one is tough - I no longer have a phone buddy but I used to, they were better for anxiety attacks than rage attacks though.

 

[wdkywomys]

I've struggled with anger and anger rages for a long time. The past 2 years I've been going through anger management. I would pack all the anger and issues deep down inside. When I did this I would go off on people for no reason at all. I would throw stuff and curse like a sailor. Now when I get into a rage I have to focus and start thinking positive things. I often tell myself over and over again " do not throw anything" I'm still angry but my rages have stopped. I'm angry at the ones who have caused me suffer at the hands of PTSD. I mean without this crap my life would be pretty damn good but because of their selfish actions I have to pay for it. It's not fair at all.

I go running when I begin to go on my anger rage or clean the house. For a long time the house would be spotless. You have to learn how to control that anger and sometimes it's difficult to find that place. Trust me I'm the worst then it comes to keeping my anger in check.

I hope you can find something that works for you.

 

[TeddySue]

I have people telling me to hold it in and not make trouble. After holding it in for a year it finally broke loose
when the person confronted me about something very minor. The dam broke. My vision became tunneled
and I could think of nothing else but yelling at this man.

The REAL reason for my rage was something his family did one year ago; held down for so long it finally became so big I could no long hold it in.

I had listened to people tell me not to confront this family and this was the wrong advice for me.

How can I deal with something i consider pretty major without doing a full-on rage? How long is too long pushing down the perceived abuse?

 

[ericaboo]

I'm trying to learn about how these things happen to me as well and what I'm hearing is this: It's imperative to clear the air with people early on so you can let go of the experience and not have it fester and build. There is a way of acknowledging that you disagree with or disapprove of something, in a respectful, assertive way without "making trouble."

If I could tell you how to do that, I would be a much healthier person right now, but there it is. Someone said it to me like this: Be assertive, but polite. I believe if you can convey your position in an unemotional, logical manner, they will be more likely to accept it as information and not an attack, which is a win-win in my opinion.

Wish I could practice what I preach...

 

[Maya123]

I have the same experiences. I have been diagnosed with panic disorder a month ago and I'm taking xanax to prevent them from coming. However, I have had tremendous outbreaks of anger since then, mostly directed at my mother. I can barely keep myself from breaking things around me so I usually just hit my head with my fists and pull my hair out. Then ofc comes the feeling that I need to revenge. This really sucks I'm so sorry you are having these experiences too. Are you taking any medicine to prevent the panick attacks? Anger outbursts might be a side effect to some drugs, even though I kind of think the drugs just replace one chemical reaction with another, that is, fear is being replaced by anger, as a less uncomfortable state of mind.

 

[ericaboo]

I'm on meds, and have been able to control my rage (so far) since I increased to the highest possible dose of klonopin. Really, this is just a temporary fix though.

The meds gradually lose their effectiveness, and it's really about changing my lifestyle, lowering my stress levels and knowing when it's time to remove myself from the situation.

I've been working out almost every day, have ended a volatile relationship and am trying to continue moving in a healthy direction.

 

[bright_morning]

I feel like a different person (dissociation), my heart races, and I feel anxious (my stomach is clenched, for example). These moments last an average of 10-20 minutes. They've occasionally gone on for hours. Might this also count as a "panic attack"? Does anyone have a similar experience?

Yes and yes. I think it's panic related too because I will often have the rage accompainied by sensations like I can't stand to be in my own body but can't escape. I have been doing super intensive therapy for a few years now and find that the deeper I go into my feelings (rage, revenge) the more present I become. Being present feels weird because I am used to being dissociated, sometimes so weird that my rage, anger, sadness, horror or whatever feeling I am processing will spill over into a full blown panic attack.

It's a real war sometimes, this recovery stuff.