Thanks everyone, yes I will look it up Abstract. I think I dissociate on occassion, although I think I have a very bad neck. Well, I know I have back injuries (years) and hips, and have dislocated my shoulder quite a few times- I recall a Chiropractor saying "Well you know with your injuries" (but to be honest I didn't want to tell him I haven't gone to the Dr and he didn't elaborate and I couldn't bring myself to ask). 'Attractive', lol! :rolleyes: But my neck is so immobile, barely stand the pain,and cracks constantly, I think (I know) that's likely Arthritis. And my sister has a bad (amongst others) C3 injury, much worse than mine, my dad's back was way worse, also, when I told her she said she finds the same. Like that feeling you're upside down, almost like when you don't realize fainting is coming on and next thing you know what your cheek is against is the floor, and the view is of the baseboards, lol.
My fault too, when I shovel I throw it to where I want it to melt come spring. (Dumb ass, lol.)
Thank you Abstract- I did stand up for myself there. Yikes. Occurred to me, she was angry, shouldn't *I* be the one feeling 'angry'-(?). :confused: But my sister worked for her and said she does that at Christmas. But 7+ hours of constant, reasonably heavy work with no break is kind of crazy, especially I would more likely resent it, being Christmas Day. I'll likely run late with people gathering with their families, anyway. The way I look at it, it's not "911"- that is, no earth-shaking crisis that justifies non-stop work, I've done that for even 72 hour periods etc when it is a crisis. But this just a 'regular' day, if anything the people will all be celebrating.
And Sailorgal, thank you to you also. I know things will work out for you. Am pulling for you.
At one point in my life I had to really accept- though in no way minimizing others accomplishments- that as Mother Teresa used to say, "God won't ask you how many degrees you have on your wall".
Do feel ~ho-hum about what I've managed to accomplish for Christmas- about 1/3 of what I've set out to, I guess, in terms of responsibilities, what I would wish to, and socially. Not feeling guilty or badly about that is probably a bit harder. But, oh well. I did find out yesterday my sister and her friend are planning to celebrate New Year's here, I think together as she has to work til around 9pm (I have to work, but later), but they are both off the next day (I'm not). So, eiy. I don't want them to be on the highway at 9 or 10pm New Years eve night. But if I don't go out, oye. But I'm trying not to think about it, at all. Not even Christmas yet. I might just 'have' to opt to go out. Usually there are only 2 days of the year I absolutely don't want to, unless it's just with one or 2 really close friends, or a good's friend's house party, and oddly enough New Year's eve is one. But oh well, the future even few days, can't really take for granted. Whatever it's ok.
Kind of sad about Christmas, the thought around it, but more happy and peaceful, too.
Big Hugs to All! (Will look it up Abstract, funny when you're on your front walk and can't figure out where the front door is. Knew I wasn't likely shoveling someone else's walk at night, lol. Couldn't quite figure out 'what' I was doing, either- except I was wearing 2 parka's and had a shovel, lol.)
Big Big :hug: :inlove:.
