Anyone had a near death experience they can describe?

[Fadeaway]

No white light or tunnel just floating in a sea of darkness. Not peaceful but not scary either. When I think back on it I think boring, probably wasn't thinking that at the time. but damn now I am crying remembering the events surrounding it. But yeah, I was flatlined for quite some time, and brought back with paddles, I used to the amount of time I was flat lined for but I don't think about it much and have forgotten.The amount of time was second hand information as well second hand so.. I do remember the days following and not feeling quit right. I felt wrong. Not sure if that went away with time or if I just got used to that feeling.

 

[Deleted member 34328]

No white light or tunnel just floating in a sea of darkness. Not peaceful but not scary either. When I...

It is really strange. I feel more disconnected now than before. I wasn't floating. More like color all around with lots of movement. Not jarring or banging. Like stirring a big pot and being a part of whatever is in there.

I think my mind is just now beginning to process this. I wish I could bury the thoughts and emotions away and not think of them at all. Pretend it never happened. Too bad it doesn't work that way.

 

[ladee]

guess it's still around because there are powerful and healing lessons in it.... maybe.... what you might be learning would have only be done the way it happened.... I hope you get peace.... and not be afraid.... thinking of you...... and sending gentle hugs...

 

[Deleted member 34328]

Thank you Ladee.

Maybe one day I'll make some sense out of it. It has made me re-evaluate some of the relationships around me though. Those who are in a large part responsible for the initial trauma. That's something pretty big.

Shell shock is starting to thaw, so reality is kicking in. I guess I'm starting to feel a little more of what everyone else felt immediately after the accident. Very painful and emotional.

I guess this is where forum support really kicks in.

 

[ladee]

Just know we are here for you, to pick thru the pieces of the puzzle and it goes back the way you want it and need it to be.... There is no way something that powerful can happen and not change the way you see the world, yourself, and the people involved.....
Maybe this will be major turning points for you... I hope so.... going to be interesting what all you learn from this... supporting you and hearing you. gentle hugs.

 

[EpicJess84]

When I was 17 I had enough of life and over dosed on my mother's medication. I had a seizure and flat lined in the hospital. I know how cheesy this sounds but I remember, a little fuzzy, seeing my mother and the nurses and the difibulator (spelling?) machine. But it was in a third person view, not first person. I remember some colors. I felt peaceful if I were to describe anything at all. Recently I had 30 MG of cimbalta and it gave me serotonin syndrome and sent me into flash backs of that night. I've been terrified for a week, even of just sleeping, and have intense dreams. I can't imagine that everyone's death experience would be the same, especially if still "half alive", as we are all on different paths. I am deeply sorry for your experience. But I am glad that you are still here!

 

[Deleted member 37474]

@stp2012 I am so sorry that this happened to you and wish you peace and healing. I believe that there is greater meaning in the dread of a "white light" (bad) altered by swirling colors to make it something you can better handle. I know how painful this all is for you and the connections back to the beginning of your original trauma and decisions and thoughts that now occupy your mind. I wish I was in a capacity to give back. For what it's worth, you are in my prayers.

 

[Upside Down Eagle]

I think the question could be - why is this bothering you? What kind of feeling or thought do you associate with what happened?

I had a near-death experience at 14. I was swimming on a beach that´s known for its unpredictable waves.
I was "grabbed" by a wave and the sheer force of it sucked me onto the bottom of the ocean. There was a strong current and I couldn´t get free.

First there was panic and struggle, but finally I just gave up. There was a great peace that came over me. I saw some faces of relatives and I remembered some of my life - and I felt peace about everything that happened. I was ready to "go".

The current pushed me back towards the surface.
The experience contributed in my life. I now know that it is possible to achieve a state where you are at complete peace.

Perhaps you can ask yourself if and whether you learned anything from this experience. You probably did, or it would not be on your mind so much.

 

[Deleted member 487]

Near death? Oh boy...I have a list! As for time I flat-lined and came back, two, maybe three times? Each time I flat-lined, I didn't see no angels or clouds with big doors (as some religious folks say, thinking they were in heaven or something). I saw nothing. But I heard people. I felt it when they zapped me with an AED.

 

[Deleted member 34328]

Wow...that must have hurt @cactus_jack. I've been told that often when patients flat line there is often an out of body experience and some describe being caught in a prism of colors. Maybe that's what happened. Maybe I'll never know.

Have to say though that just because at the moment Canada has "free" medical coverage for all citizens, the hospitals are horrible when it comes to retrieving medical records. After 3 weeks, I finally got the name of the drug that caused the reaction, and that was just a lucky break for me.

 

[Deleted member 487]

Nope. I felt the burning pain, but no jolt.