Madmaninabox
Confident
Very different experience but you asked for experiences and I have one. this is incredibly hard for me to talk about.
I was 6. And I made a noise and he told me I was "going to get us both in trouble." I remember really trying to be quite because I was scared of him. I orgasimed and could not help but made a noise. I was holding my breath and try to be quite and couldn't.
I still get pretty triggered by the noises I still make when I orgasime. And it sucks I try and avoid making noises even now. And I have a lot of shame around that. I don't have a partner now and I'm really afraid to get one. I don't want anyone else to hear me. The thought of that scares me. Makes me feel like I'm going to "get in trouble." Even though I know that's not logical.
I'm so sorry this happened to you. I know that part has been the hardest for me to deal with. It's not your fault. but I know how hard it can be to convince yourself that. Because I couldn't help but be loud is kinda a hard pill to swallow. Because it's something that should be good. You want to be so excited you can't help but vocalize in a safe consensual setting. This wasn't a that setting. Your brain pulled the rip cord and your body was trying to protect itself.
I feel a lot of shame around this also. Because I didn't orgasime when he was doing stuff to me. I got really aroused and afterwards brought me to the bathroom. (he was just supposed to walk me there) and I mastubated for the first time because I was aroused and needed to pee but couldn't. I was 6 and didn't understand and I wouldn't have been aroused if he didn't do what he did. But ya the shame is real.
I made a noise and he banged on the metal door and scream at me "your going to get us both in trouble" it was a lot. I didn't know what an orgasime was. all I knew is I felt really good and I made a loud noise when I happened. I was also in a lot of pain because of both what he did and how rough I was with myself.
ya the moment I actually made noises is one of the moments I have the most shame around in my life. It's shame and fear mixed together. I haven't really heard anyone talk about vocalizing either. Thanks for sharing your experience. Made me feel a little less alone. I hope this does the same for you.
Don't get me wrong in a lot of cases it is men. And it's definitely a problem deeply rooted in patriarchy. And most of the time statistically ya... but just not always.
And I saw a few people already say women. I just thought I would throw in older children as well because why not.
I was 6. And I made a noise and he told me I was "going to get us both in trouble." I remember really trying to be quite because I was scared of him. I orgasimed and could not help but made a noise. I was holding my breath and try to be quite and couldn't.
I still get pretty triggered by the noises I still make when I orgasime. And it sucks I try and avoid making noises even now. And I have a lot of shame around that. I don't have a partner now and I'm really afraid to get one. I don't want anyone else to hear me. The thought of that scares me. Makes me feel like I'm going to "get in trouble." Even though I know that's not logical.
I'm so sorry this happened to you. I know that part has been the hardest for me to deal with. It's not your fault. but I know how hard it can be to convince yourself that. Because I couldn't help but be loud is kinda a hard pill to swallow. Because it's something that should be good. You want to be so excited you can't help but vocalize in a safe consensual setting. This wasn't a that setting. Your brain pulled the rip cord and your body was trying to protect itself.
I feel a lot of shame around this also. Because I didn't orgasime when he was doing stuff to me. I got really aroused and afterwards brought me to the bathroom. (he was just supposed to walk me there) and I mastubated for the first time because I was aroused and needed to pee but couldn't. I was 6 and didn't understand and I wouldn't have been aroused if he didn't do what he did. But ya the shame is real.
I made a noise and he banged on the metal door and scream at me "your going to get us both in trouble" it was a lot. I didn't know what an orgasime was. all I knew is I felt really good and I made a loud noise when I happened. I was also in a lot of pain because of both what he did and how rough I was with myself.
ya the moment I actually made noises is one of the moments I have the most shame around in my life. It's shame and fear mixed together. I haven't really heard anyone talk about vocalizing either. Thanks for sharing your experience. Made me feel a little less alone. I hope this does the same for you.
Um ya, and women, and in my case an 11 year old boy... um and presumably any other type of person.Rapists are men.
Don't get me wrong in a lot of cases it is men. And it's definitely a problem deeply rooted in patriarchy. And most of the time statistically ya... but just not always.
And I saw a few people already say women. I just thought I would throw in older children as well because why not.