koalaburger
Learning
I am a man and have suffered from impotence all my life. I remember about 6 women getting up out of bed and walking away. I don't blame them. I was not able to even admit I was impotent and that is why I merrily went on my way disappointing women lol. I decided I needed to get to know myself and to develop friendships. I have friends but I never let them get too close. My father called me every gay abusive name you can think of as well as a wimp and mommies boy every single day. I was sexually abused by a male teacher for a year when I was 12 but I have not even faced that yet. I just block it out. I am so full of self loathing and shame it is no wonder I do not want to bring someone else into that world. I have accepted my lot and found comfort in TV, computer games and twitter. I am still in therapy but I am becoming more aware daily at how absolutely broken I am. The abuse was from both parents and unrelenting. One thing I am grateful for is that I have empathy for others in pain and fight the good fight for the underdog on twitter. I love watching animals who get on with other animals on U tube. I am grateful I can feel my feelings now.