General Back To Square One.... Again.

[wife of]

Having him been so well over christmas now just feels like a cruel trick.

Is this realy all destiny has in store for me,fighting the grim reaper on hubbys behalf 24/7.

Between the PTSD and the endocrine issues which stem from his head injury that caused,in part the ptsd It just feels as though I am constantly trying to nail jelly to a tree.

I must of been a mass murderer or similar in a former life,none of us deserve this.

Currently petrified,waiting for the backlash for bringing his downward spiral to the attentoin of the crises team,its going to end up with him thinking I want him locked away as he wouldn't self admit last night and thought his proposed actions(that I won't go into here)were the obvious answer and was quite astonished that I could not condone the course of planned action. Crises team therefore had him seen by the required 3 docs and sectioned.

Hard to believe that 48 hours ago I was so blissfuly happy ,he'd progressed so much and was happy and relaxed.

All it took was some idiot with fireworks having thier fleeting moment of fun to render this family without thier husband/dad for what looks like being at least a month..

 

[Toria]

Oh Wife Of - I am so, so sorry.There's not a lot more I can say, other than you know that you did the right thing and that he will know it too eventually I am sure. I will be thinking of you x

 

[Eleanor]

(((((((wife of))))))) Aaargh:cry:.

I am glad you have the institutional support to get him looked after, even if he will not thank you for some time. Maybe it is better for us to really look at it as if our sufferers were possessed by demons? What really helps me when my H starts with what I think of as the "mother script" is to just repeat to myself "I will not talk to dead people. I will not talk to dead people." You have to engage the demon - is there anything you can do to help yourself keep a little distance to protect you? If it really was a demon, at least then we wouldn't have to take it so personally.

I have **some** (little tiny) idea of your fear - my ex-H was (I was pretty sure) suicidal at one point ... He went out for it seemed like a really long time - I called the police. He came back ok. But it was a very very very horrible feeling, and how cruel that it makes time drag as an unhappy side effect.

Some days, life just sucks. And then others, it doesn't. It is rollercoaster - which would be fun if you could Get Off. But the only thing to do is hang on. Or, as my friend's very cool minister suggests - throw your hands up in the air and scream....? This is real. But so were the good days. Kind of gives a whole new level of meaning to the "One Day at a Time" AA advice.:sick:

Prayers for you and your family....

 

[Temple Dog]

I am so, so sorry, Wife Of. I hear, support and cheer your willingness to be brave and stick your head the the lion's mouth to do what you felt needed to be done. No, we're not thanked for it often. Not nearly enough and not from the sources we'd most love to receive it. I offer my thanks to you. Thank you for being brave. Thank you for fighting the good fight. Again.

As as aside, the fireworks aren't loved over here at Casa Temple Dog either. Couldn't even stand out on our deck this Christmas and look at the stars for fear the neighbors celebrations might undo us. The first crackle: I jump because he'll jump and pretty soon we're like twitchy jumping beans trying not to swear because those folks don't feel like these folks and can't understand.

Be good to yourself ((hug))

 

[amethist]

So sorry to hear this wife of, but you did what you had to do, as you always will.

Thank goodness the loud firework that went off here today, did not have such a traumatic effect on him as the one had on your husband.

I cannot begin to imagine how this must have effected you again, so soon after the last one.

Hang in there, you are doing all you can.

Amethist

 

[KP the nut]

(((wife of)))

I'm so sorry this has happened. Damned fireworks and so bloody loud.

You did what you had to do, in time your H will know that, maybe deep down he does know, but PTSD and fear make it impossible to speak.

I'm thinking of you and your family. Remember the good Christmas times, they happened then and they will happen again.

Linking arms
KP

 

[newbie2011]

Wife Of am so sorry to hear that. You have acted in your husband's best interests though, even though he probably can't see that at the moment.

Stay strong and look after yourself and your family at this moment in time

 

[SeekingSerenity]

You and your family are in my thoughts.

 

[Sunshine71]

Dear Wife Of

I do hope that you are as OK - well as OK as you possibly could be

My hubby was also good over Xmas - although New Years Eve he asked me "what my name was" After being together since we were 18 and now 41...... Another slump tonight after a few good days. How they can just change and so quickly is just hell.

Pls do take care of yourself - bl@@dy hell so many people have said that to me recently too - I dont know how to really. Sending you love and you know that you are not alone.....

Love Sunshine xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

 

[ProudWife99]

Wife Of, like many others here I am so sorry to hear that has happened. My thoughts and prayers are with you and yours.

 

[ISupportHer]

Thinking of you, for sure, yet also now have read that you had a good moment in the mean time. Such is the roller coaster of PTSD (or bungee cord)

ISH