I'm at school today, and have classes from one o'clock until ten in the evening for classes. After my first class, I have a major panic attack with no obvious trigger.
I head to the woman's center to hand out and hide, and calm down. There's a counsellor was there who notices, gives me tea, and invites me to her office to talk. Really helped. I stay there at the center for an hour or two before resting, then I go eat at a place on campus.
After that, I need to go to the library's computer lab, but it's too crowded and I had to get out of there. I leave the lab and there's still people everywhere so I just leave the library and escape outdoors.
I hear three very loud explosive sounds: the opening to a loud rock song being performed live. I couldn't go back in and I couldn't be out in all the loud banging noise and music and hurry towards the often empty building my classes are in.
Past the fountain that's hissing out sprays of water. It sounds and feels like the flooding simulator, when there's sprays of water coming out of pipes all around you, and the room fills up with water, and you can't do anything but stand there because your paralyzed with fear every time you do the simulator.
I get to my building, and it's quiet and mostly empty. I hide in a chair on the third floor and rest, calming down finally.
And then someone in the room I'm just outside of starts screaming and cussing about something. I can't stand screaming. I think he was goofing around but I can't tell the difference. I just heard what the f*ck and mother f*cker and him just complaining about something. I can't handle screaming like that.
So I get away to another spot. It's okay so far. Class in thirty minutes, and it's a small one and my favorite. Three more hours, then I can go home.
I head to the woman's center to hand out and hide, and calm down. There's a counsellor was there who notices, gives me tea, and invites me to her office to talk. Really helped. I stay there at the center for an hour or two before resting, then I go eat at a place on campus.
After that, I need to go to the library's computer lab, but it's too crowded and I had to get out of there. I leave the lab and there's still people everywhere so I just leave the library and escape outdoors.
I hear three very loud explosive sounds: the opening to a loud rock song being performed live. I couldn't go back in and I couldn't be out in all the loud banging noise and music and hurry towards the often empty building my classes are in.
Past the fountain that's hissing out sprays of water. It sounds and feels like the flooding simulator, when there's sprays of water coming out of pipes all around you, and the room fills up with water, and you can't do anything but stand there because your paralyzed with fear every time you do the simulator.
I get to my building, and it's quiet and mostly empty. I hide in a chair on the third floor and rest, calming down finally.
And then someone in the room I'm just outside of starts screaming and cussing about something. I can't stand screaming. I think he was goofing around but I can't tell the difference. I just heard what the f*ck and mother f*cker and him just complaining about something. I can't handle screaming like that.
So I get away to another spot. It's okay so far. Class in thirty minutes, and it's a small one and my favorite. Three more hours, then I can go home.
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