Brain Spinning Way Too Fast. Anxiety?

[Gs172003]

Yep. We have a pool at the apartment complex. I think its closed for the winter now but can...

Do you have a YMCA nearby? They base their fees on your income. I pay $26/ month myself. That could be an option if you're willing

 

[lostforgottensoul]

Do you have a YMCA nearby?

I'm not sure but can look into it.

I have a feeling I will need to wait on that. I freak around people (even if it's one person) and in a bathing suit. I don't know. Maybe wasting my money.

I am trying to train my dog to be a service dog and he is getting better but I honestly can't start the bulk of the training until I get a head collar. I just spent 2 hrs on amazon to find the right one that had less pictures of broken ones. So ordered that, their training lead, and a service dog vest (only to get him used to it and used to vest on work and vest off not working). Their service dog patch is velco so won't put that on for a while. Thinking of getting one that says "service dog in training" but in any case.

Thought of the petstore to get him used to being by shopping carts and then my upstair neighbors stairs to get him used to stairs. And then I want to ask my therapist (whom is for this) to see if I can bring him to sessions to get him used to going into places, like waiting rooms, and being calm and sitting down.

Anyway, my point is until he is trained enough to be called a service dog (which can be a long while though I am working with him daily) I may not be able to go in a bathing suit. Going around people is one thing but almost naked is a complete other.

I will try maybe going and seeing how I feel. Maybe?

 

[Gs172003]

I'm not sure but can look into it.

I have a feeling I will need to wait on that. I freak ar...

I don't know about there but here the hours are fairly early in the morning and late at night but yeah you might need to wait.

Hmmmm...

 

[Gs172003]

does walking hurt?

 

[Gs172003]

I'm sorry. I'm trying lol

 

[lostforgottensoul]

@Zoogal, I know you are.

Walking does hurt. Most things hurt. I can try though.

Thanks for brain storming! :hug:

 

[Gs172003]

@Zoogal, I know you are.

Walking does hurt. Most things hurt. I can try...

Youre welcome.

 

[Gs172003]

Hmm....how about Tai chi?

 

[lostforgottensoul]

Tai chi?

Hmmm. Maybe. Reminds me of yoga which I can't do. But maybe. Of course I can always try as I have never tried Tai chi.

 

[lostforgottensoul]

I haven't increased the Serquel as I'm afraid of that wet rag feeling but I'm forcing myself to slow down (including typing this. I'm saying it sllooww in my head lol). That has helped a ton. Specifically on here I am also forcing myself to re-read threads several times even though I think I understood it and also forcing myself to re-read my posts before posting. Hopefully it has helped in my posting.

In my real life I am naming the stuff I am doing and forcing myself to slow my speaking and its seeming to help. My brain is still spinning faster then usual but I think it has helped to slow it some.

And I am also finding things to really occupy my mind which really helps as it has something to do.

Anyway, thanks for all of the feedback, its working.

 

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@lostforgottensoul I'm sooooooooo freaking jealous that you can take Morphine! f*ck, I can't. Allergic to it. Last time I had viral meningitis they hook up a pump so I could have a hit every 15 minutes. NOPE! Swelled up, rash and itchy wishing an hour.

Anyways... I couldn't take serquel at all. I tried it once for sleep. Dr put me on 50mgs to start. Holy shit, that stuff knocked me on my ass to the point I couldn't wake up the next day, sweating, felt like shit.

Just hoping you can find a balance here and figure out the meds shit. It's frustrating as hell...

 

[Gs172003]

I have watched women ( even elderly ones) do Tai chi. It's not like yoga. It's a very slow, very flowing very artistic martial art type thing. See if you can look it up