Break Down Today

[FishNH]

After my therapy day was done, we watched a movie. I stayed for only 10-15 mins. f*cked up scenes that got to me. Violence against women. so I had to leave. Went to my car and just started crying. Between therapy today and big.argument with my wife then the movie. It got to me. I blame myself for marriage going down the tubes though I know it takes 2 to work it. When shit goes wrong, self blame is all I know. talked to my sister and was able to put it back into perspective.

 

[atilla]

Sorry bro about your day. Theres so much shit we have to work through every day. Sounds to me you made an effort to socialize. Good job. I'm glad your sister helped you. We have to take support where ever we can get it. Not a lot of people have the balls to even attempt to help us put shit into perspective. Keep hanging around Bro. This is a good place.

 

[reddevil1111]

Glad you were able to see you had limits. That's a good thing. Walking away is a good thing to do. So is the crying. Its a form of stress relief you know. And coping.

Marriage takes two. All relationships take two. But it only takes one person to work on the PTSD. You.

Your doing some good things. Keep it up. Sometimes its baby steps but you know your still moving forward.

 

[FishNH]

Thanks guys. If I didn't have my little guy, I would be totally lost right now. Taking these steps not just for me, but for him too. Feels like I take 2 steps forward and then pushed 5 steps back with my wife. Its just so f*cked up right now. And what really pisses me off is she works with veterans. How can you support other vets but not your own? But thank you for the encouragement, it really does mean alot to me.