Sadielady3
MyPTSD Pro
I've been wrestling with something since Friday and thought maybe I'd post it here to see if anyone has any input or thoughts. I've been going through a lot lately. I have been having intense episodes of vertigo, which has kept me out of work (I'm a teacher) for over a week now. Dramamine seems to help some but I still have episodes that are bad enough that I have to sit down or lay down. I'm supposed to see an ENT specialist on June 8th but I've been in and out of Urgent Care the past week and have had numerous tests run including a CT scan and an MRI of my brain. None of the tests are coming up with anything but it is Urgent Care and they are just trying to rule out life threatening stuff.
I saw my therapist on Friday. He thinks the issue is psychological. He also now thinks that I have bipolar disorder. Technically, my current diagnosis is major depression disorder with a secondary diagnosis of anxiety. Both my therapist and my psychiatrist agree that I have PTSD. I personally think I have C-PTSD but I know that diagnosis is more controversial. I honestly don't care what the chart says that I have, only that I'm getting treatment that will help me to improve as much as possible. If bipolar is correct and getting on meds for it helps, I'm all for it.
I don't think I have BD because I don't have manic episodes at all. My husband agrees with that- in the five years we've lived together he's never seen any mania. There's also no family history that I am aware of for BD. I knew all four of my grandparents and none of them likely had it based on my memories of them. My mom is a narc with some anxiety issues while my dad had OCD (hoarding disorder) and possibly some depression. I've never seen any manic episodes with either of them either. My brother seems to have escaped all of the mental health issues and seems fine. The only thing I can see on the checklist which could apply to me in terms of a manic episode is that I do become goal oriented when I'm not depressed but I still sleep and take breaks from whatever I'm working on. I'm just more focused than when I'm depressed on actually completing tasks.
I do think that my depressive periods are triggered by emotional dysregulation. I will know at this point exactly what is bothering me and why I shouldn't even be bothered by it. In the past, my therapist has noted that I have traumatized parts. I think what's happening, although I can't say for sure, is that one of the parts is triggered and I can't stop the feelings. Then I spiral into darkness, despite rationally knowing that everything will be fine.
I personally think my T could make a better case for DID (somewhat likely) or even BPD (not terribly likely but possible). I did read a few articles that say it's not uncommon for people with C-PTSD to be misdiagnosed as having bipolar disorder. So I thought that maybe someone here has been through this and might have some insight.
I saw my therapist on Friday. He thinks the issue is psychological. He also now thinks that I have bipolar disorder. Technically, my current diagnosis is major depression disorder with a secondary diagnosis of anxiety. Both my therapist and my psychiatrist agree that I have PTSD. I personally think I have C-PTSD but I know that diagnosis is more controversial. I honestly don't care what the chart says that I have, only that I'm getting treatment that will help me to improve as much as possible. If bipolar is correct and getting on meds for it helps, I'm all for it.
I don't think I have BD because I don't have manic episodes at all. My husband agrees with that- in the five years we've lived together he's never seen any mania. There's also no family history that I am aware of for BD. I knew all four of my grandparents and none of them likely had it based on my memories of them. My mom is a narc with some anxiety issues while my dad had OCD (hoarding disorder) and possibly some depression. I've never seen any manic episodes with either of them either. My brother seems to have escaped all of the mental health issues and seems fine. The only thing I can see on the checklist which could apply to me in terms of a manic episode is that I do become goal oriented when I'm not depressed but I still sleep and take breaks from whatever I'm working on. I'm just more focused than when I'm depressed on actually completing tasks.
I do think that my depressive periods are triggered by emotional dysregulation. I will know at this point exactly what is bothering me and why I shouldn't even be bothered by it. In the past, my therapist has noted that I have traumatized parts. I think what's happening, although I can't say for sure, is that one of the parts is triggered and I can't stop the feelings. Then I spiral into darkness, despite rationally knowing that everything will be fine.
I personally think my T could make a better case for DID (somewhat likely) or even BPD (not terribly likely but possible). I did read a few articles that say it's not uncommon for people with C-PTSD to be misdiagnosed as having bipolar disorder. So I thought that maybe someone here has been through this and might have some insight.