Childhood Can a flashback be made up ?

[MyWillow]

Memory is certainly malleable. But a fair whack of research suggests that traumatic memories are different. To be honest the brain is so complex I don't think we will ever understand.

I have absolutely zero memories that correlate with what I think are flashbacks - a scene in front of my eyes, a smell that isn't there that leaves me shaking, a random word that triggers a terrifying response but mostly a complete blank for the flashback itself. I go completely off line and when I come back on line I feel like I've been hit by a truck. How you could imagine that shit is beyond me. My biggest learning curve has been to ride it out rather than fight it.

 

[PiggyBack]

One of my flashbacks/nightmares are to a time when my family of origin would plug the vacuum cleaner into, well, me and I'd have this horrible feeling of sickness or being drained of power. Obviously, it's impossible to be true as I don't have any electric outlets on my person. However, when I was 3, I was in the hospital suffering from a burst appendix where all sorts of IV's and drains were "plugged" into me. Could it be a modified dream or delirium? Or, perhaps it was just a dream that somehow became "fact" in my head.

Obviously, it bothers you. It's worth exploring.