I have better understanding of what is going on with me. When husband and I got together I did not want to follow news except for pandemic medical health care psychology. I knew a lot about narcissism cluster b traits dark triad spiritual trauma etc. I do not have a political identity took effort to become unregistered voter. Husband made it clear everyone should follow the news . If not those people are weak. So I did or tried. My fear escalated out of control. We had another talk to today. I expla8ned I lost myself trying to do it. Now I am worn out exhausted trying to simplify. Less clothes other things to clean up buy etc. We don't live high on the hog. We own an rv together. Since we met we have moved 5 times. Very hard to keep changing especially health care. I should have never done this trying to meet his unrealistic expectations. He is hurt angry again. Me too. I had to call the crisis line yesterday. I got to feeling extreme,y worthless hopeless. Better today but a ways to go. My husband is a good man. He has done a lot for me. But the level of fear I have because I did this a d he is a doomsday prepper has clouded that. I had to ask him today what is the realistic chance that people breaking in or trying to kill us is? His answer not much. Any ideas or suggestions appreciated.