Colorful and hopefully optimistic but maybe hateful occasionally

[ILoveLife]

Ahah Nestle is awesome.

I once stepped on Flashs on accident tail and Picci came to defend her.
I apologized to both!

 

[Freida]

WOW!!!!!! Just WOW!!!!!! So very proud of you!
That is some serious damaged data dumping. Yay!! ??

There's more, I just started getting angry so I quit.

I should have known that it was okay to get mad about that.

You got angry! yay! ??

That actually felt nice to get out. I wasn't allowed to talk about it.

Not only are you now allowed to talk about it, but you can share whatever you want here and know that none of us will shame or guilt you for it.

f*cking creep, lol. I blocked her.

Look at you go!!!!! So very, very proud!

 

[littleoc]

Updates:

Xavier caught a shrew

We had a talk about how shrews are actually allowed, please

Also it’s snowing and it’s not even December. At least it’s not tornadoes!

Also I hope y’all know I appreciate you for the support. In real life I feel like I’m trapped in my own skull, because I don’t have control over what I say or when. But here I feel very comfortable and somehow can say what I’m actually thinking, instead of what someone else is thinking. So that’s nice :D

I’ve noticed around friends that I am able to say more of what I’m thinking. So that’s exciting! That happened even while I was with Brandi, but it still getting easier and easier

I am too tired to do trauma work, but I may tomorrow

 

[ILoveLife]

At least it’s not tornadoes!

Lol. Yeah. Brightside!

I’ve noticed around friends that I am able to say more of what I’m thinking.

That's great!! :hug:

I am too tired to do trauma work, but I may tomorrow

Don't force it though, if you're tired let yourself rest and be okay again.

 

[littleoc]

I got badly triggered twice in the span of two minutes. My head hurts.

Gonna talk about something else instead. Xavier the outdoor kitty was complaining because it's snowing. So I let him inside, and he jumped on the couch and started kneading it, so I went outside with Nestle to take a walk :D

When I got back inside, Xavier was at the front door yelling, "MEEEEEEOWWWW" which means "HELP SOMEONE TRAPPED ME IN HERE" so I opened the door and said, "You can leave if you want to! It's still cold but you aren't trapped!" And he smelled the air and said "mr" which means "hey it's cooler out there, and kinda humid and snowy, please fix it" and I said "I can't, buddy; out or in?" and he walked outside with a sad face lol

 

[littleoc]

My therapist shouldn’t have told me that I was a mess back then. Since I can remember back then. Even if my memory is weirder now.

I don’t know if I ever talked to her about these things though. I don’t think she knows I’m synesthesic. Or maybe she does since we did EMDR?

Remembering is giving me a headache. It feels like there’s a metal object in my brain that I’m trying to pull out with a magnet when I try to remember some things. And like I’m on top of my brain trying to look into it through a sheet.

 

[littleoc]

I am too stressed suddenly.

 

[littleoc]

I can’t believe it snowed this far south in autumn, lol

 

[littleoc]

There shouldn’t be a gap in my memory right there.

 

[littleoc]

I am relaxing

 

[littleoc]

GRILLED CHEESE FOR DINNER IT IS with tomato soup

 

[somerandomguy]

Friday would yell, "I DONT WANT SOUP!"