I had been reading and researching childhood trauma. In the past 2 years, I have been able to get to the root of C-PTSD which I hadn't been able to in the previous years.
Coming to acceptance that my siblings were the main abusers, my mother allowed all this in her presence, while my father didn't give a damn about the family and was often away from home for weeks due to business; hasn't been easy.
I had been portraying anger on several other people, what my siblings and parents were responsible for.
During my recent reading of a book titled Toxic Parents by Susan Forward, I found that I should be confronting my abusers, which I hadn't thought of, and planned to avoid.
However, I now realise that I haven't been able to stop the portraying of what my siblings and parents did, onto others; and I continue to feel angry most of the time.
I have been avoiding the angering and confrontation part and hope to do it sometime soon.
I was hoping for some encouragement and support from a group or/and a therapist. My past 2 therapists sucked, and I haven't been able to join a support group due to non-availability in my city.
I do hope to build up enough courage to confront my abusive parents and siblings really soon.
Coming to acceptance that my siblings were the main abusers, my mother allowed all this in her presence, while my father didn't give a damn about the family and was often away from home for weeks due to business; hasn't been easy.
I had been portraying anger on several other people, what my siblings and parents were responsible for.
During my recent reading of a book titled Toxic Parents by Susan Forward, I found that I should be confronting my abusers, which I hadn't thought of, and planned to avoid.
However, I now realise that I haven't been able to stop the portraying of what my siblings and parents did, onto others; and I continue to feel angry most of the time.
I have been avoiding the angering and confrontation part and hope to do it sometime soon.
I was hoping for some encouragement and support from a group or/and a therapist. My past 2 therapists sucked, and I haven't been able to join a support group due to non-availability in my city.
I do hope to build up enough courage to confront my abusive parents and siblings really soon.