Constant Search For Affirmation

[Ulag]

Here too I don't understand how it works - sometimes feels like a club I can't be accepted into.

THIS, exactly this

 

[Olija]

lashing out with woe

Former unaware "Woe Lasher"
Current friendless

trust ("any," in my case.")
I miss my old life. Feels like a different person.

I hear you, yo - I hear you

 

[Esa]

and I too loved it! but I look back now and think a lot of it was codependency. I needed to supply something to everyone to feel worthy of being loved - and some of those people were not really friends. Certainly not when the s**t hit the fan in my own life.

And

But I too got very very tired after some devastating events. I didn't have the energy anyway. And then PTSD set in and I didn't even feel safe leaving the house!

THIS!!!!!!!!!!!! F*#k, yes!! THIS!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Get out of my head. Dear God. How could you possibly know? This is an emotional feeling of a mirror image for me.

 

[Upoca]

Sorry. I meant ^^^^ that^^^^ reply to IPE

 

[Ipe]

(-: glad it's not only me on this journey. It's good to feel not so alone. Affirmation!!

 

[Iteji]

I never said long time friends were leaving to protect themselves from me - more that they are distant.
I see this a bit in this site where it almost feels like you expose your feelings and someone comes Along to let you know it's all your own fault somehow.

I wasn't saying it was your fault. YOU were saying it was your fault, when you said you bring everyone down. As a matter of fact, I questioned whether or not that was true. Sometimes it is, yes. Other times it's not.

I had enough shaming from others when I began to not be able to handle my own life properly and my symptoms set in. I don't need it here on a help site!!

i was trying to help. You said you bring everyone down, & then were lamenting why why why were people leaving, and not doing what you wanted, and not staying. IF you're right, that you're the one causing people to leave? There are things you can do about that. Those are solutions to problems, not shame on you for having problems.

Oh you poor thing? Means you're hopeless. Helpless. There's nothing you can do. I'm not got to sit here and tell you that you're hopeless and helpless. And that what you want is unreasonable and poor you, you're never going to have it, so cry it out honey & give up that stupid impossible dream, cause you're just f*cked. Nope. You aren't. You have a problem and it has several different solutions.

It might not make you feel good to find out that you can actually have what you want in your life, or that someone believes in you more than you clearly believe in yourself if you think you are a lost cause, hopeless, and helpless... but I'd really like to challenge that whole line of reasoning.