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MyPTSD Pro
this one is a pretty big facter for me as well. i had very bad motor tics as a child and i still have to suppress them as a adult. i used to roll my eyes really hard and wrinkle my nose and purse my lips and things. i also have with i still have it with my shoulders and hands and things. i rub my legs and touch my own face and shoulders compulsevely and things.
or i jerk and twitch and things. it is pretty noticeble. if i try hard i can suppress it. but specially during flash backs and if i get stressed triggered all that. my instinct is that it is abuse the way you see animels will do that like a bird plucks its own feathers or self harm or what not. mine is linked to similer sensations of wishing to self harm.
that there is so much energy and emotion within me that does not know how to contane itself. i have also a bad problem with stuttering (i beleve it is called psychogenic stuttering). it gets real bad when i am upset. my verbal fluency is pretty poor in generel but as i grow older it has gotten easier. but when i am upset? all bets are off and i become a neurotic animel looking thing.
pretty embarressing ultimetly because it feels child like. but i suppose that is what those behavhiers get encoded, like a way of self soothing. all this pain is real hard to cope with and so the body and brain does all kinds of things to try and mitegate it and make it bearable!
or i jerk and twitch and things. it is pretty noticeble. if i try hard i can suppress it. but specially during flash backs and if i get stressed triggered all that. my instinct is that it is abuse the way you see animels will do that like a bird plucks its own feathers or self harm or what not. mine is linked to similer sensations of wishing to self harm.
that there is so much energy and emotion within me that does not know how to contane itself. i have also a bad problem with stuttering (i beleve it is called psychogenic stuttering). it gets real bad when i am upset. my verbal fluency is pretty poor in generel but as i grow older it has gotten easier. but when i am upset? all bets are off and i become a neurotic animel looking thing.
pretty embarressing ultimetly because it feels child like. but i suppose that is what those behavhiers get encoded, like a way of self soothing. all this pain is real hard to cope with and so the body and brain does all kinds of things to try and mitegate it and make it bearable!