Crying - A Happy Medium Perhaps?

[shimmerz]

Normally for no known reason to myself I will have silent tears run down my face. I am quiet and don't really know what I am feeling at the time. I can't seem to put words to it but I am completely silent with the tears just streaming.

3 times now over the past seven years since my symptoms started I have had what I can only describe as primal crying attacks that have lasted for days. Yesterday was one of them. I just lost it and I can't figure out why. You would think my body would get tired, need hydration or something. Nope. Body wracking sobs, wails, etc. If asked why - I have to say that there were situations yesterday that may have brought them on - but nothing out of the usual. I have had a history of being taken to the hospital the two other times this has happened to me and those experiences were NOT good - so I think there is a bit of trauma wrapped up in the tears in the recent past as well that makes me even more terrified of this out of control crying.

So my question is, has anyone any ideas or been successful in getting to a happy medium type of crying. You know, crying that is appropriate for the situation?

 

[Deleted member 24866]

At times I have had this happen.. if I schedule personal time for processing and just accept it.. eventually it resolves, or I learn what it is that I am so out of touch with. I just imagine every last tear.. cleansing my body and soul of toxins.. Do you have enough down time dear?

 

[shimmerz]

@NLotfalla I have to say that I don't have a great sense of my body so it is very difficult for me to know if I have enough down time. I seem to react in this way when I feel hopelessly trapped or in a position where I feel like I have no place to go. Then the world seems to come tumbling down on me.

It seems to be a trigger response to certain events and there is no stopping it without extreme intervention. I process everything which probably causes me to become exhausted (although I don't feel that). Based on my symptoms I must think through in minute detail everything I do so I do not compromise myself or my health. I am a strange case. :)

I thank you for your insights and will certainly take them into account.

 

[Shan-Nav01]

A while back I was chatting with the mental health advisor at uni and he asked me when the last time I cried was, so I told him and he asked what type - essentially the 2 you described.

I said the 'body wracking sobs' he didn't say anything about it, but he did have that look on his face of - that's a good thing to be happening. I know that doesn't overly help control it or anything but sometimes you've just got to let your body do what it's got to do!

 

[GG-love]

I don't know if there is a more or less appropriate way to cry. I too have confused crying episodes, like my mind is holding in something that it won't let out and then I have the primal full body crying episode which exhausts me.

I have found that when I have this happen it really helps to let it out, many times in a hot shower, which seems to help me slow it down. I get frustrated trying to figure out what is causing it or what triggered it.

I think sometimes mine are caused by not letting things out in small doses and holding onto things in a way that just may not be healthy for me, just haven't figured out how to deal with something when I don't know what it is yet.