Curious, Why Is It We Can Type (but Cannot Say Aloud) All We Are Thinking Sometimes?

[Jadie Rose]

The question just popped up in my head and I became curious. Thought I'd try this thread since it seems to happen most with therapists :)

 

[James McGregor]

The question just popped up in my head and I became curious. Thought I'd try this thread since it se...

no idea why that happens, but yes it does to me to!! i can be struggling and having a terrible time, yet when i see a therapist, i cant think of anything at all to say and actually feel as if everything is ok. its so annoying, and a real problem when it can take so long to get to see a therapist!

 

[Jadie Rose]

I KNOW, it's the so strange. I know EXACTLY what I am thinking but I feel so mute when I go into appts. BUT, the most amazing part is, they (trauma therapists) actually UNDERSTAND and help you through the whole process. It's almost scary how much they help me. I even just asked in my last appt (in my dissociated state) to make me not be able to speak again because I wanted to "see" how it feels because that had never happened to me before. It was so odd, but I guess that is my writing side (always trying to explain things I cannot understand yet). THANK GOD I'm dealing with this all now, because 15 years ago no one even understood one word I was sharing EVER)

 

[Jadie Rose]

You know the best part of being almost somewhat mute tho, now, is my dog listens to me more than EVER LOL. (Ok I get delirious when I haven't slept for many nights, sawry!)

 

[Jadie Rose]

My experience was SO public because I worked for the largest company in my big city when it happened...too many people knew about it all before I even had a chance to absorb it and accept it all myself...way too many damn people got to accept it before the months I finally came out of denial) and I was ostracized (wow, I CANNOT believe I got that spelling right on the first try...maybe me releasing right now is taking me back to my spelling bee days??) so very badly by the two roommates I had (which one just literally emailed me last week but have not emailed back yet), lost my soul sister/very best friend I will have ever had in my lifetime and so many more who believed in the poor girl finding her strong way through life but then got lost and lost everyone in the mix because of it. This is the first time anyone has ever understood anything I'm even talking about after so damn long, besides the MD psychiatrist I have and trauma therapists I have so I think I'm still in awe!!! (throws the mic down in honor of Obama LOLLLLL)

 

[watundah]

I find that therapy puts me in a dissociated state where my thoughts are stifled and I simply cannot ramble on. At home, alone, after time to think and process, I have often typed the thoughts and sent them to my therapist or send it to myself to bring up next time. There also is some anxiety, social anxiety, whatever, being watched and seen so deeply by another person which dampens my ability to be vulnerable. Three weeks ago I took in a page I had written and we're still talking about it. I also believe once you give voice to something it becomes real and emotions rush in.

 

[Jadie Rose]

I find that therapy puts me in a dissociated state where my thoughts are stifled and I simply cannot r...

I can imagine it helps bring out so much! I'm just starting with a trauma team and so I'm just learning, and thank you for all you shared! I need to learn more. I start something new and cannot sleep well, that's just me - I'm excited to post and read other posts here, so this really helps as a newbie. It's a very different process to learn how to endure, but I am hearing from many on here, very effective. I will take what you suggest and incorporate it in, thank you :)

 

[Jadie Rose]

I find that therapy puts me in a dissociated state where my thoughts are stifled and I simply cannot r...

The biggest lesson to learn, I'm guessing, is you both keep talking about things...perhaps a flow conversation method? I know it takes time to make sense out of anything, I just have ALWAYS been a writer so this focus on talking live and in person with specialists is very different than what I'm used to.

 

[Jadie Rose]

**CORRECTION: "this focus on TRYING to talk live and NOTHING COMING OUT CORRECTLY in person..."

LOL. Just gotta laugh these days as all this newness sinks in.

 

[Friday]

I can burn what I'm writing down. People tend to object when I set them on fire.

 

[Jadie Rose]

I can burn what I'm writing down. People tend to object when I set them on fire.

That is GOOD!!!! I love that :D Stealing it, Friday :happy: