I am going through the worst PTSD times I have ever experienced. It's been going on for months. I can usually work through things and get back "on the road" within a few days to a few weeks but this time, it just keeps dragging on.
I have not been out of the house much lately. I went grocery shopping two weeks ago and a clerk dropped a box of something the next aisle over. I felt like every cell in my body exploded. That was the end of my ability to cope on that trip. All I could think about was getting out.
It has been a real struggle for me to leave the house just to walk the dog. Today is my daughter's 21st birthday and I have not been able to get her a gift. I feel so guilty. I can't stop crying. I want to take her out to dinner tonight and I can't even walk out the front door right now. I gave her a hundred bucks over the weekend to spend on a convention she went to. After she left, I realized that I signed my actual name instead of "Mom" on the card. It wasn't intentional. I'm just so distracted that I can't think.
I don't want my daughter's 21st birthday to go by without a celebration and I can't give it to her. She is a college student living at home so family is a huge deal for us.
PTSD sucks.
I have not been out of the house much lately. I went grocery shopping two weeks ago and a clerk dropped a box of something the next aisle over. I felt like every cell in my body exploded. That was the end of my ability to cope on that trip. All I could think about was getting out.
It has been a real struggle for me to leave the house just to walk the dog. Today is my daughter's 21st birthday and I have not been able to get her a gift. I feel so guilty. I can't stop crying. I want to take her out to dinner tonight and I can't even walk out the front door right now. I gave her a hundred bucks over the weekend to spend on a convention she went to. After she left, I realized that I signed my actual name instead of "Mom" on the card. It wasn't intentional. I'm just so distracted that I can't think.
I don't want my daughter's 21st birthday to go by without a celebration and I can't give it to her. She is a college student living at home so family is a huge deal for us.
PTSD sucks.
