Death Dealing With Death, How Do You All Cope?

[Adrian2016]

New member here. Just joined yesterday so please use patience as I am still learning the ropes here. Thank you!
Well I was recently diagnosed ptsd and have been struggling greatly over past few months. I have struggled with many things. One being death. I have had 3 close friends commit sucide or overdose in the past two years. This has been rather difficult.

Also today, I found out my great grandmother died whom I was at one point very close with. She was truely an amazing lady. I have been estranged from my family for about a year and a half due to them not wanting a relationship with me. Also, the few attempts they have made to reconnect have only increased my feelings of anger and betrayal as I am self alienating and untrusting regardless and being abandoned by people that had once meant so much in my life was very traumatic for me, as well as woefully unfair.

Anyways, how all do you cope with catastrophic situations like this? I am in the middle of a deep war with my ptsd and have had several triggers in a matter of a week or two. My mindstate is unwell and I can FEEL IT. I hurt so bad. Please share your experiences and how you cope with death as I am numb and for me that is a dangerous place to be. Any replies are greatly appreciated.
Thank you all.

 

[Stickler]

Going to deposit a :hug: here...
I cry. I am kind to myself. I reach out to the people I still have.
I feel it in measured bits.
That may or may not be what you need.

I see your pain. I hear it. You're not alone.

 

[Blackjack]

Adrian2016, firstly you are among friends here who will help you. I cannot offer much advice I am afraid but my trauma involved the death of two people I knew so I really do understand.
I too am fighting the same very big war with PTSD and according to my counsellor I am suffering severe trauma and am really quite unwell which came as a shock.
I am sure you will find help and support here as everyone is so helpful and understands what you are going through.
Take care

 

[Adrian2016]

Adrian2016, firstly you are among friends here who will help you. I cannot offer much advice I am afr...

Thank you so much. Even though you aren't sure what to say..just the fact that you took time to respond and that you can relate is more helpful than i can express....especially once the isolation and withdrawal takes its toll...very hard to find people in life that can understand...im going about it pretty much as you described...counseling monday so i just have to pull through until then...god bless and I know that you can win this fight friend :)

 

[Adrian2016]

Going to deposit a :hug: here...
I cry. I am kind to myself. I reach out to the people I still have....

Thank you :)

 

[Friday]

Welcome to the forums :)

I suspect you'll find this very useful... It's an amazing conceptualization for those of us with PTSD at any time... But especially when there are huge stressors in our lives!

https://www.myptsd.com/threads/the-ptsd-cup-explanation.83659/

 

[Silver.]

I think we all deal with death in our own way. I think the most important thing is to find an outlet that works for you to help you to cope with it. Some people go running, some people cry, there is mediation and yoga, you might find it healing to journal about it, some people like to talk about it. There are a lot of options that, while they won't make it any easier, they might help you to cope with it a little better. Know that you are not alone in your suffering and there are people that genuinely care about the well being of others. Take care x