Derealisation And Depersonalisation

[scott_1971_h]

I've been derealising and depersonalising sinc as long as i can remember. I can remember at 4 years old wondering what the difference between dreams and reality was. There wasn't much difference for me.
When i get really stressed out i feel as though i am floating above myself looking down at myself. This has happened often.
One dream i had when i was young was: I was at school, by where the water fountain was, and i was floating above myself, i was naked (at school thank christ it was a dream) and thinking "Careful, they might get to know you".

Anyone else had bizzare dreams and things like that?

Scott

 

[anthony]

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[Kintsugi]

I'm not sure if this is quite the same thing, but as a child I often dreamed that I was drowning, and it would always be in first person until I started suffocating. Then I came outside myself and saw myself drowning from the outside. The terrible thing about these dreams was that I would actually hold my breath IRL.

 

[scott_1971_h]

I've had the feeling of falling while I was sitting in a chair before. Fully conscious, sitting, just falling. I didn't even fall off the chair or anything.
Scott

 

[Springer80]

Anyone had the experience of what they think is Depersonalization ending and how on earth you adjust to it?

 

[Spiderallis]

Before I learned the word 'depersonalization' I thought it was what the new-age crowd calls astral travel. Reading about that helped. It's not what's going on but I taught myself to visualize a cord between my physical self and the me that floats away. I can follow along that cord and get back. Trouble is, I don't always want to come back.

My symptoms are heavy on the depersonalization end of things. I joke with a few friends about pinning a note to my shirt that says I'm not home.

 

[Springer80]

Funny you should say about visualizing a cord....that's exactly what I've been doing for weeks now. And the pulling sensation has gone, the physical exertion has gone, the mental conflict on which one to act on has gone. The muscular contortion in my stomach changed and my breathing is different. I'm not cooking myself from the inside trying to simultaneously hide, fight and function.

I'm off work and I'm resting loads though. So I'm not living a full life at the mo. I feel like a giraffe trying to stand up on a bouncy castle. But seen as I'm not keen on falling and getting hurt I'm sitting. Can't sit forever though and don't have all the time in the world to learn to stand. I like the sitting. Sitting is good if it means I get to feel like this.