DID Did, denial and engaging in trauma therapy

[chant2012]

Don't have a DID diagnosis. If anything I would be more along the lines of OSDD-1 (I have parts and they influence and blend with me but they're not as distinct as alters). You're brave for reaching out. Support to you. I start with a trauma T on Friday.

 

[Sarahlou611]

I find it silly that therapists doesn't Believe in DID? It's not Jesus or God, it's creative copin...

I don't know. An old psychiatrist basically didn't even believe in minor dissociation, as in "normal" dissociation. Although he then deliberately triggered a switch...

I don't know how professionals struggle to accept it, when they accept psychosis or schizophrenia etc.

 

[Sarahlou611]

Don't have a DID diagnosis. If anything I would be more along the lines of OSDD-1 (I have parts and t...

Good luck with your therapy.

It is hard but I'm trying to remind myself, it will be worth it in the end!

 

[Doggylover]

Hi. I'm new to all of this, by that I mean the whole online forum etc.

I'm currently undergoing tr...

I have almost the same story. I may have asked this question before. Does anyone know of a place that treats DID and trauma? The only reputable ones I know of--and I don't even know if they're reputable; my therapist is callingy to talk to a clinician. I got nowhere with the admissions people and they wouldn't let me talk to a clinician. The two places are Khiron House in Oxfordshire -- I think one or two hours from London and The Meadows in Arizona. The Meadows isn't ideal because I don't have an addiction, and I've read the they shove the 12 steps down your throat--and codepency and all that even if it's not applicable.

Thanks.
DL

 

[Deleted member 33880]

Hi , I am in the UK too /I have a therapist who knows I am scared still of the DID diagnosis and explain my different parts in all sorts of ways, but I have different parts indeed, with different language and mannerisms and personalities. He just says rubbish stuff like ' but you are conscious of all your parts' ?!?!*?!
So where does that lead me? Like you, struggling with it. I have had to accept that I can come under the continuum of DID about 40-60% along that continuum. I have had to accept that my therapist hasn't even read the book Dissociative Identity Disorder Sourcebook by Deborah Haddock that I gave him two years ago. that book and the book by the PODS person (recovery is the best revenge by Carolyn Spring) are me exactly. Scarily.
but according to my dear psychologist, it is not DID.
I think he is protecting me so that it doesn't go on my record. He wants me protected from the negative consequences of such a diagnosis I think.
Who knows.
All I know is that I need to talk to people more like me. And you are a good start. So we could have a thread here just for DID people (and people like me who seem to be DID but their therapist doesn't like labels,) to talk about how we are doing. I am really in need of this. And also, I have thought of going on one of PODS training days in the UK. I think it would be helpful for me. Feel free to message me and I look forward to you posting more on here.

 

[Bluepopsicle]

I think everyone should get validation. The worst thing you can do for yourself is to engage to therapist who doesn't "believe in your struggle" (which is DID) been there.

 

[Deleted member 33880]

SarahLou: I have just looked up Khiron house that Doggy lover suggested. It looks brilliant. did you know about it? I have sent them an email asking how much and if I can get NHS funding for it.
Mental Health Clinic | Recovery Clinic - Khiron House

 

[Doggylover]

SarahLou: I have just looked up Khiron house that Doggy lover suggested. It looks brilliant. did you kno...

I have to shower--which is torture because of my OCD and trauma stuff--but I have to go to a meeting. When I get back. I can fill you in about what I know about Khiron House.

Best,
DL

 

[Sarahlou611]

SarahLou: I have just looked up Khiron house that Doggy lover suggested. It looks brilliant. did you kno...

I'm currently at a supposedly specialist unit, that came with a higher recommendation than anywhere else at the time.

I'm not convinced it is anywhere near the reputation it had to be honest. It has potential but there are so many problems right now.

It's actually making matters much worse being here, but as I'm making progress, my funders won't look at anywhere else

 

[Sarahlou611]

Hi , I am in the UK too /I have a therapist who knows I am scared still of the DID diagnosis and explain...

I went to a PODS training day a few years ago. One of the ones they don't deliver anymore, but their training days are really good. They're hard work, but I learnt loads about myself.

 

[Deleted member 33880]

SarahLou, you are way ahead of me! I will really try and make a training day with PODS - they have several different types - which do you suggest?
Is where you are meant to be as good as Khiron House? Which looks really good but Doggylover said they will tell us more about that when they return. I wonder if it is good news?
Please tell me why things are feeling worse, but you are classified as 'making progress'?
Did the NHS pay for you to be there or is it under private insurance?
I am so fed up of feeling bad, I really am. I am in the odd position of actually envying you being somewhere specialist and you are there finding it hard. Shall we swop ;)

 

[Sarahlou611]

I don't know much about Khiron house to be honest.

I know when my care team were looking, they were given better feedback about here, it was recommended by a few people and it was described/sold as a brilliant service.

I guess I mean that things have been getting harder (as they will during therapy) but everyone else thinks it's progress.
There are some things I'm coping with better than I did before, but the switching, flashbacks, nightmares, urges etc are all more intense and regular.

I'm struggling to see any progress due to feeling so out of control and things being so painful at the moment, on top of feeling unsupported due to lack of structure, consistency, communication (and all of the other issues!) Within the unit here and problems with trusting staff.

My placement is being funded through the NHS, after years under MH services and in and out of acute and secure services.

I'm not sure in terms of PODS training days now, the one I went to was (I think) called "living and working with dissociation"