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Sexual Assault Did he rape me?

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Hello community…

I’m not a native speaker, so please excuse possible spelling or grammatical mistakes.

I dunno where to ask and I’m afraid, that if I ask in my homecountry someone that I know will find out and relate the question with me.

2 days ago, my family and I were invited to my uncle’s house. I’m 22 btw and he is about 48 or 49 years old. He has a wife and two children. I backed off quite fast to another room because I don’t like too many people around myself. When he came to my room he asked what I was doing and grabbed my tits. I told him to stop and said “no” for several times but he ignored me with a grin on his face . Then he grabbed my face with both of his hands and kissed me. It was my first kiss (yes, I’m 22 and a virgin…well, just if you don’t count the several times he penetrated me with his fingers) and it was disgusting and wet. He slid his hands over my belly and in my underpants. While he was doing his “things” he told me how much of a pretty woman I was, that I made him horny , that it’s my fault that he had a boner and so on. I wanted him to stop and was struggling but he pressed me with his body closer to the wall. Obviously he was stronger than me and inserted one of his big fingers without a warning. You probably can imagine the rest. He penetrated me for a bit with his finger and when he pulled the finger out he jerked off in front of me. He wanted me to watch him but I couldn’t so I just took a short glance and tried to focus myself on the video I was watching (one of my favourite band). Then he left and behaved like nothing just happened.

It wasn’t the first time…it happens from time to time since I was 13. But I can’t tell anyone, my parents wouldn’t understand (I’m not very good with them), and I’m 22, so I have to deal with my problems by myself.

My question now is: did he rape me? I’ve heard that penetrating with a finger counts as rape…but I’m still not sure, yet.
 
I'm sorry this happened to you. I don't know if my response is of any help but I can understand the confusion you are feeling.
I'm 24 and my first kiss happened during a very similar event (not a family member but a friend) the same thing happened with using fingers but not genital penetration and so I can empathise with you about the confusion over is this rape or not.

I have spent a lot of time researching this and have had numerous professionals call it different things. The police and psychiatrist called it rape. Therapist called is a sexual assault. Different states seem to have different legislation on if it is rape or if it is sexual assault.
It unfortunately seems that it is difficult to define what it really is when it is fingers and depends on the person you talk to. I think because of this asking yourself how you view the event is important and what you are comfortable defining it as. Whatever it is though it was wrong , you did not want it , it was non-consensual and you told him no and that it is in no way your fault.
 
Very sorry... I am not a verbal guru as it pertains to legal language of "rape." However, you were sexually assaulted and it was wrong... I hope you can perhaps find someone to talk to about it that is safe. Really sorry this happened. Your uncle is a scum bag. If he has been doing this since you were 13 he deserves to be in jail. So sorry....
 
I think this was definitely sexual assault and you were molested as a child. The exact name doesn't matter so much I think. You deserve to be safe away from this guy and you deserve to heal.
 
It depends where you are in the world, some countries do class it as rape. FBI definitely classes it as rape. It happened to me too and I still told my therapist I was raped even though my country doesn't define it as it.
 
Hello and thank you to everbody who answered. I'm not sure how my country will treat this.. I live in Switzerland. I'm not quite sure if I can go on with my life like that. Can't focus myself at work (it's also very challenging there right now).
I also can't stop ineracting with him. He's a family member and everybody would ask me if I wouldn't go to the family events.
 
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Hello community…

I’m not a native speaker, so please excuse possible spelling or grammatical mist...

Oh yes, this definitely counts as rape, at least in the US. According to US law, rape is a forcible, non-consensual act of vaginal or anal penetration with a penis, finger, or some other instrument. I don't know if the rules are different in Switzerland. Maybe you could look up your country's laws on rape and sexual assault online?

No matter what the laws say, rape is a non-consensual sexual act, and your uncle clearly penetrated you in multiple ways without your consent. He molested you. He abused you. That's wrong. He shouldn't have done that.

I'm really, really sorry that this happened to you, and especially by your uncle. Are you able to get help, either in person or online? A therapist or counselor can guide you through the process of healing. It's going to be really messy dealing with the emotional and psychological consequences of rape.
 
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