I am not new to dealing with my trauma unfortunately, I have been dealing with it in some shape or form for over twenty years now...unfortunately the resources for veteran women have not been very good until recent years and they still have a lo-o-ong way to go until they accomplish what they are going to need to do to overcome what I have been through. I have been through several incidents of sexual assault & stalking and have gone through several extreme swings of 'good' years and then come the bad years. Lately, they have been all bad. I not only have to deal with mental issues but I am also dealing with severe pain issues due to injuries that I suffered and am now completely disabled and can no longer work. This tends to make it even more difficult for me because so much of my personality when I am feeling good is tied up with being active and being able to get out and about. I had owned my own advertising & printing company for many years and was extremely active physically. Not being able to do those things and dealing with the deterioration of my body has almost been worse than dealing with the PTSD & the sexual trauma! It is SO HARD to deal with your body falling apart and then your mind betrays you and decides it's going to flip out on you at the same time. So-I now go to the VA regularly and am finally getting hooked up with ANOTHER group tomorrow to see if I can handle being around people again (I have a hard time being around groups of people now).
I have been married for twelve years and our marriage is really struggling. My hubby is trying to be supportive but he's got to be tired of dealing with it too. We have not been intimate in forever it seems like. He has his own issues that he is dealing with (he is a maintenance alcoholic (meaning he drinks enough to not get sick because we can't afford to pay for him to go through treatment). He never misses a day of work and he never drinks anywhere but home. He never, EVER has ever been abusive or anything but loving and supportive to me so I really can't say he is a "bad" alcoholic. I just wish he would quit because it is going to make him very sick one day because he is a diabetic. So-that causes me a lot of worry. We just lost our home to foreclosure a week and a half ago and have to move out by January 8th so I will be homeless if we can't find a house in the next week or so, more 'stuff' to be stressing about.
I came to this Forum hoping to find some other veterans that are dealing with the same issues as myself. So-if you are out there and want to chat or have feedback let me know. I can't afford a membership right now. I am still trying to get some of my old squadron mates to help me out with supporting statements so that I can get my 100% disability approved. The VA has denied me so many times it is ridiculous, but that is another saga I won't get into...I hope to help others with my story and at the same time maybe stretch myself and start putting myself out there more. I have to stop closing myself off so much and start pushing myself to interact with others more. That's all I have for now...sorry this was so long..
Docs Gal
I have been married for twelve years and our marriage is really struggling. My hubby is trying to be supportive but he's got to be tired of dealing with it too. We have not been intimate in forever it seems like. He has his own issues that he is dealing with (he is a maintenance alcoholic (meaning he drinks enough to not get sick because we can't afford to pay for him to go through treatment). He never misses a day of work and he never drinks anywhere but home. He never, EVER has ever been abusive or anything but loving and supportive to me so I really can't say he is a "bad" alcoholic. I just wish he would quit because it is going to make him very sick one day because he is a diabetic. So-that causes me a lot of worry. We just lost our home to foreclosure a week and a half ago and have to move out by January 8th so I will be homeless if we can't find a house in the next week or so, more 'stuff' to be stressing about.
I came to this Forum hoping to find some other veterans that are dealing with the same issues as myself. So-if you are out there and want to chat or have feedback let me know. I can't afford a membership right now. I am still trying to get some of my old squadron mates to help me out with supporting statements so that I can get my 100% disability approved. The VA has denied me so many times it is ridiculous, but that is another saga I won't get into...I hope to help others with my story and at the same time maybe stretch myself and start putting myself out there more. I have to stop closing myself off so much and start pushing myself to interact with others more. That's all I have for now...sorry this was so long..
Docs Gal
